My Words, Your Words

Sweet and delicate
But who knows what's inside
Mystery revealed but yet
Curiosity ignited
Why is that so?

Smiles and tears
Like lanterns under the moon
Count your blessings
Glorious impression is the source
Why is that so?

Scents and flavors
In every corner of a round shape
Noise of love resonated
Overcome the bareness of lust
Why is that so?

Feelings and thoughts
of losing are around you
Roaming like fireflies
Stalking at the door
Why is that so?

It's complicated
Just follow the light
Let's not blown away
Too much sugar will kill you

Where shall I return to today?
It's a momentary encounter
Things that gone and things that disappeared
How many flames are scorched because of the light?

The importance of something is meaningless
Unless you understand how to play with fire
Everything seems tricky to where it went
All those footsteps of yours are uneraseable

Some things that changed
Some things that will change
Some things that are changing
Some things that have changed
Some things that cannot be changed
Would it be that way forever? To the ends of the earth?

Being lost and then found
I shall stand amidst narrow chasms of calamity
Where shall I return to today?
Where shall I look to tomorrow?

Laughing as if crying
Crying as if laughing
Screaming and laughing are quite simila
Isn't it?

All I can see around me is just a fragments
Maybe it was me who shattered into pieces
I know that you're in denial

I just don't understand
When good intentions are rejected
Nothing is important anymore right?
You should leave the fake hope
I don't want to see fake smile anymore
You shake your head
I should know from the beginning
You're just an illusion of happiness

Two of us believing the same future
Which will never come
You're not a lifeless doll
That always putting a mask of happiness in your face
You know we're so devastated inside

I'm weak, if you say I'm strong, I'm lying
Tenderness and selfishness, I just can't see it anymore
How do you see me? I can't see the real shape of myself

I'm not desperately asking for compassion
Tell me a sweet lie and this body will be devoured
Infect me with your lies and fill me with your poison
Please show me madness

Something inside me has disappeared
Even if you don't believe me
Just face it, be hurt, feel the pain

Maybe I'm just afraid of being hurt by believing but...
I have the courage to let go of something and...
What you see within me is something you have done in the past so...
I will stay as myself forever

When my world was in darkness
I'm denying my own existence
I wished someone would say, "It's a lie"

In this dirty world
The translucent heart has been shattered
I'm not even tired denying things
As if I'm not myself

It was too sudden
I don't know if I could accept it
Everything looks fine and active as usual
As if nothing had happened

I remember those words
I hear a voice saying "don't cry anymore"
But I don't want something pointless
You know that words are powerless

I want to keep believing
Something true and unchanging
Something pure and transparent
Something real and trustworthy

I want to believe that
We're living up our life
Until the day we're die
Until we're become stronger
Until we're become more tender

Portrait of happiness is clinging to
My old self which has dead
Along with the memories from the past
There's no sounds of laughter
It's quiet like the silent night

There's nothing can take away my courage
No one is going to take away my courage
I won't stay blind and deaf to overcome this fear
Because of the haunting illusion

When the happiness is possessing me
The shape of this world probably changed

Wind of justice are blindly following the shadow
There's no sign of tomorrow
Lights of sorrow are illuminating this universe
I wonder who will survive

My inner appearance is struggling
I always seek for freedom and then suffering
I fall down without even expressing my affections

Even if you don't believe me
I'm still continue living until now
Because I'm not dead yet
I'm not fully awake

This trembling finger is such a restless feeling
My heart is scattered within my mind
I'm hugging my knees in the corner of this world

How many path should I choose?
I no can think of anything but you
A melody of sorrowful tune played in my heart
And break everything apart into pieces

How do I survive from this?
I can't exetend my hands to reach you
You, The illusion that dwelling inside me
Finally began to sparkling

As hard as a diamond
That's what a heart should be
If tomorrow never exist
The word 'stronger' wouldn't exist as well

When someone taught me about empty feeling
The pain goes deeper and deeper
I want to become an unwithering flower

How could I say 'Let's go'?
I only embrace this moment by myself
There is only one thing very important to me now
And you know what the answer is

How do I escape from this?
I'm going to see the lights without you
You, the image from the future inside me
Is now at my hand

As beautiful as a diamond
That's what a heart should be
If the future never exist
The word 'brighter' wouldn't exist as well

The rainbow has lose it's colors
I've come this far to find the lost light
Nothing scares me than this fear

The cold body is moving in the heat of the night
Stars are sparkling but it's hard to see the path
The rotation of this universe is always the same

Prayer of eternity in the realm of darkness
Forbidden memories in ancient times
Why we always try to defy our fate?

Please return this world to its original form
Where the kindness and unity living together
Eternal life is our wish in this wonderland

Taking the pain by the same history
Overjoyed with those excitement
Imagine ourselves in the heavenly place

Now I'm running towards the sun
Searching for a lost paradise in this universe
Why time always took everything I had?

How deep is our thoughts
When it comes to terrifying past?
You teach me something important
Through my fear, despair, and hatred

I want to talk about you a lot
Even though I don't know how
Your message is engraved within my heart
Because you taught me
How important my existence is

If this is the beginning of everything
How should I start? What should I do?
You taught me, my existence doesn't last forever
Were I able to go over the clouds peacefully?

Even if you say goodbye and suddenly disappears
You'll always be in my heart
I know I'm not alone anymore
Why I was born... How I want to live...
Thanks for your guidance within me

You always do what you set your heart on
I think it's not an easy thing to do
I want to follow you in that way

I just don't understand
What I should do when I felt so lonely
I believe I will find the answer for ourselves
Because I know I have to say goodbye someday

NOTE:

Okay, for this one it seems very different from my usual works, because for this post, I inspired by one of the famous game in PSX, which is Final Fantasy IX. If you know it, you will find a lot of of the quotes in this post. Anyway, even though this one seems different, I have to say that this is not bad, since the quotes from the games are so many. Thank You~

"I thought that the things that I want to keep
Isn't a precious things"
I refrain myself and keep saying it repeatedly
"I am myself is a precious things
That someone would keep"
Sometimes we forgot,
How important our existence for this world

We were born to live
To live in these kind of days
Days when lie isn't a serious matter
That's why it's hard to trust anyone else

Life is never smooth like a silk
There are a lot of pattern of smiles and tears
Anything is possible even we have to tear it

What can I do to save it?
I'm tired of these days of meaningless fun
I hope I could become a shooting star
Just across the sky and then disappear

"Remember the day when we're forgotten"
I will keep saying this until I understand
I don't know if I should leave this lonely world behind

I want to become your shadow
I will follow you wherever you go
Nowhere to run, Nowhere to go
But my life wouldn't end like a shadow or a shooting star

Please trust me with all your might
Then we will continue to walk on this silky road

It was so sudden
Everything is passed away
Just like the wind blows

When the night comes
I gaze to the sky
I could see a lot of stars

But it was so sad
The star sparkles
Has lost it's lights
One by one until dark

I wish a better future for us
Whether it's hard or it's hurt
Truth must be revealed
In order to save everyone

Destiny awaits you
Until the end of time
We will know the history
That's always inevitable

Sometimes i don't believe coincidence
But until i understand what tears are for
The starry nights will always waiting for us
Until that day... Someday...

The night was so dark
The rain was too heavy
I can't even see the stars that night

I wish i won't meet this pain anymore
Because things are going so fast recently
There are too many conclusions and reasons

What would you think about me now?
What would i think about you now?
You see, i don't want to escape from this one

I don't want to cry
Because i have to end the disguise soon
I keep up all of your feelings without tears
You keep up all of your feelings without smile

I don't know if my heart is already ruined
You don't know if your heart is already healed
I always trying to smile pretending to be okay
Even the fact isn't always like that

I think i find someone who was treats and serves me better
I want to said that i'm happy with that
But if i didn't end the disguise soon
I'm just remake another disguises after all

Now, i'm realized that everything is going to be alright
If i'm not sacrifices something to get other along well
Things are go better and everything can get along well

I want to cry
Because i've already end the disguise
I keep up all of your feelings with smile
You keep up all of your feelings without tears

For those who are keep struggling
From the insanity of these days
You will find the appropriate answer sooner

When you lose the feeling of kindness
The world seems turning into black & white
We're longing for something that we want to embrace

Losing my feeling,
Falling into the dream,
Is it me who escape from the reality?

"Are you expecting something unchanging?"
Probably, the future has the answer
In order to save myself from these illusion
I won't stray on this path by myself

At the moments where my tears calling out your name
The colors of the sky are fading into black
I couldn't see my reflection in the mirror
Am i losing my identity?

Baseless predictions,
Hopeless expressions,
Is that the sign of despair for me?

There's nothing called truth if i keep on escaping
Reality is something we should chase
Even it's run away from us
That's why it never ends...

Accepting the things that we hate
Is one of the hardest part in this life
We're living in this present time
To endure the things that we hate
Could you imagine that?

We are the products of the past behind us
But at the same time,
We are the projects of the future in front of us
That's why we have both,
The good things and the bad things

Learning from yesterday
To avoid any mistake for tomorrow
Isn't that a simple things?

Regret is for the past
Effort is for the present
Dream is for the future
They are connected in a simple form called Life

Let's get better everyday
If today you can't make it better
Let's make it tomorrow

Regrets in the past will bring us to efforts in the present
And it will make us dream about tomorrow
Yeah, big things starts from small things
Could you believe in such simple beings?

As for now, i want to write about 2 things, so i made 2 things in 1 post~

Do As I Say

There are things which can't be done with words
But it doesn't mean the words are useless
Sometimes we have to act without words
That's how we continue living along

At times when you confused with your duty
You complain about everything and doing nothing
I know sometimes we feel really tiring
But we can't just standing and being lazy

If you lost your spirit for now
Let's scream loudly to the boundless sky
You can do it, You can carry on

When people around you were so irritating
Try humming your favorite song and keep smiling
Every person in this world actually very nice
They only need some time to realize their mistake

If you ever feel that you are the worst
There is someone out there might be worse
than you
But we always have a chance to be better
That's why we shouldn't trapped by others words

If you didn't have any confidence for now
Look at the mirror that shows true image of yourself
You can carry on, You can do it

Even the times when you are alone comes suddenly
Look at the sky and see the sun still shine for you
Look at the ground and see the shadow still follow you
Nobody could stop your step now, isn't it? 


Not As I Do


I don't have an eye to teach you
I just want to share what i feel with you
If we could walk this way together smoothly
Isn't that a nice things to do?

There are things that we could never understand
A lot of things we could never understand by ourselves
Sometimes we know the answer when we listen to others

Betrayed by people,
Mistaken with someone else,
Forgotten by others,
When these moments occurs the world seems crashing down

It's not that I want to remember these moments but
I want to forget it sooner but it won't fade in my memories
Maybe this is the scar that you share with me

Extra-ordinary person doesn't always shine in the bright place
Nevertheless people never see the other side
The best things that i could done is keep silence

I am grateful for all the kindness
Since i have a chance to know you more
Somehow i feel nostalgic about this moments
The day when i accept the reality has repeating

Memories i've embraced,
Tragedies i've called,
Reflections i've accepted,
When these moments comes this world seems rebirth once again

I don't care if i should leave this lonely world behind
I want to do the best things that i could do this way
Until your eyes opened

I'm the one who always forgotten
It's not about care with each other
Kindness and Tenderness doesn't suits me
All i have to do is just keep strong alone

I remember the day that i want to forget
It was such a pain that your name didn't mentioned
Do they appear as an illusion?
I would wish it was all a lie

Words are passing by
But nothing caught my attention
A lot of sensation has spread out
But nothing to do with me there

Does everyone think that i'm powerless?
Someday i'll proof it to the people
Forgotten things are the nicest thing to remember

Loneliness has teach me a new strength and will
To surpass everything ordinary as people think
As long as i become stronger with this feelings
I will continue to survive in this narrow cruel road
With or without you

Long, long time ago
I was standing in this place
Waiting for something
That will never come

Sleeping in front of the sunset
Sitting in front of the sunshine
If we enjoying beautiful things so much
Sooner or later it will be nothing

Everything are passed away with the rising sun
Cool things aren't important anymore
If i were the sun from today
I will start to shine without taking breath

After all we're just human
Who wants to save ourselves first
Sometimes person by person never realized
That everything they will do may save others

All the scenery we have seen now
Maybe won't come back again
Every chance that coming to us
It looks like a shooting star

Every people has their own wish
But not every people has their wish granted
If a wish is just willing for something
How do people survive to declare it?

You asked me, "Do you believe me?"
Even though you know my answer very well
I don't need anything as for now
I just want to believe

Am i depending on you too much?
We're getting closer day by day
Without even noticing that
Distance between us are shorter than before

The atmosphere are getting warmer
Your words shine brightly on me
Vanishing my fear against anything

Our feelings won't fade if we keep going
The bad memories quickly faded as the time goes by
We will running endlessly and won't stop
It doesn't scared me at all

I never understand what is happiness
But i learned something about it
When we're not alone surely we can feel it
It's hard to describe it well

When i'm without you the time runs slowly
As if i don't know what i should do
Am i trusting on you too much?

The most important things is today with you
It's hard if i should let you go but
Whatever will happens i have to be ready
Believing something is also preparing for unexpected things

Even so, why?
But that's it...
That's the way life is...

When you show your smiling face
It's so tender and sometimes warm me up
It looks like a history
That cannot be erased anymore

Feeling so depressed and confused
Make people around asking "Why?"
So many questions appear

Sometimes people asking others
Without care of themselves
I don't know it's a promise or not
But, just don't answer it

We're just a small existence
That cannot be erased easily
Please don't tell me that
This is the reason for your answer

Although the smallest things in this world
Are not the important things for this world
We are not the same

Sometimes i wonder
What is your thoughts if
Your existence will be erased?
From this world, of course...