My Words, Your Words

I want to see you
I yearn for you
I've been waiting for you
I'm waiting for the dark

The joy of summer has just begun
But I'm yearning for the snow
I don't want to see the light
I just want to see the fireworks

At the edge of the shore
I'm laying myself down
Carried away by the waves
While looking at a picture book
That ends beautifully like the stars

I chased one after another down
Only to find drowned by the waves
They rolling through the sand
Like a fury of emotions

I'm not afraid of the night
Even when the sun sets
The stars will appear again right?
Tomorrow surely will come again
The sun will rise again and shine
It's only a matter of time

I will be here and stay here
I will always be here and stay here
I will wait for the dawn
I will wait for the bird to chirp again

Let me tell you a story
About a boy and a girl
Perhaps they believe in this formless thing
It's something that everyone's desire

The boy believed that
The spark and the light of it
Transcends any border and time

The girl believed that
The bonds and the time spent on it
Mesmerizes any wall and shadow

When the light turns red
What are you going to do?
When the light turns green
Shall we continue and move on?

To the endlessly growing future
The endlessly growing future
Where thoughts and dreams are intertwined

If you don't like the story
Maybe you will like the ending
If you don't like the ending
The choice is in your hands

Is it matter for you?
Either to walk on or move on

Where shall I return to today?
It's a momentary encounter
Things that gone and things that disappeared
How many flames are scorched because of the light?

The importance of something is meaningless
Unless you understand how to play with fire
Everything seems tricky to where it went
All those footsteps of yours are uneraseable

Some things that changed
Some things that will change
Some things that are changing
Some things that have changed
Some things that cannot be changed
Would it be that way forever? To the ends of the earth?

Being lost and then found
I shall stand amidst narrow chasms of calamity
Where shall I return to today?
Where shall I look to tomorrow?

Laughing as if crying
Crying as if laughing
Screaming and laughing are quite simila
Isn't it?

It is a pure white time again
Sparkling lights everywhere
I wonder if it's going to be different

It would be great if when we awoke
It had changed into a bright dreaming world
But at this time, I don't think you understand

Deep inside my heart, there's doubt
I feel like I want to stare out the window
But even after white snow covered the green plants
No matter how you deny it, it will stay green right?

Like the sunlight shining through the trees
I wish this will last longer than before
Like a flower that never withers
How I wish for that to happen

Let the sun blazes on me
Save me from the frozen clouds
I never think it is impossible
Let's go to the world outside and see

If this is a dream
I don't care if it stays a dream

Where is the place to hear
The tale of happiness being together?
The bells are ringing everywhere

I've been telling many heroic story
Sadly, it's filled with exaggerations
Though I just want to meet
The person I cherished the most
Where are you?

I'm tired of denying things as if I'm not myself
Even I can't hold any blades to hurt myself anymore
I'm just swinging it for no reason
There is an invisible strength deep inside me

Romance is just some thoughts that can't be put into words
Not be able to explain cleverly to everything
Why this bitter tears overflow under the violet sky?
No matter how I tell you or do anything for you
You won't understand my real intention

I'm not sure if I have to wait for it
I'm not playing dice

If only our hearts is strong as steel
We will not want much at all
In the place where it shouldn't be existed

Who is that person?
Who said that 'my happiness is your happiness'?
Who wants to make another sequel that no one knows?

I wonder where I'll be headed tomorrow...

Tell me,
What is that?
Is it when I can hug you
To express my gratitude?
Am I wrong?

I am holding nothing special
But why did you choose me?
I stand up to challenge my fate
But why you did this to me?

Teach me,
What is that?
Is it when I can say I love you
To express my feeling?
Is that true?

I stay as I am like that day
I continue to be a man of my heart
With our own actions
Let's bring this to the end

What did you get?

I have come to this place again
The rusty place where you only can see two colors
Sadness crashed down to this place

I sometimes remember
How I love this place
and I sometimes forget
How I hate this life

I always looked cheerfully
without noticing the cries of my heart
Actually I turned my eyes from the reality
and denied the truth

I already said lots of things
But you won't understand
Because I don't even want you to understand
No matter how hard you try
It's just never good enough

Why the smiling face of that person
looks dazzling and so tender?
I feel that the person you always think
is somehow like the person I always think as well

I don't learn how to be strong
I only learn how to pretend to be strong
No one knows about the real me
Even myself

What can be done? My efforts are useless
You're just an innocent child
You need some more time to understand

No matter how hard I try
I still feel so blue
and you're still freshly green

Maybe I just have to stop or wait
Until I find...

I couldn't write this letter properly
The words flowing out as my hand write
As you can see, my fingers are trembling
It's not because today was so cold
Probably my heart racing because of you

How can I get along with you?
Through the heat of the day
And the mist of the night
Carrying a hope that won't fade away

Someday, I'll be at your place
I could stop in your station
But the most important things is
Your will towards me

I couldn't give you anything that
Could seen with your eyes but
I could give you something that
Couldn't see it with your eyes

Perhaps you could see it or
Even feel it with your heart...

Since I met you,
I've never wish for your happiness
I'm happy when I'm with you
Even just without words

So, please don't ask any question anymore
You know my answer very well
That's the truth

So many times,
I've been recalling about you
Though you haven't changed at all

I guess the warm atmosphere has changed
There is no more sweet conversation
I could see a bitter smile and tasteless sensation

We're not going on the same way
But why we meet again in the same destination?
It's not necessary to change the direction now

So many times,
I've been stumbled up because of you
Though it can't be helped

I thought you were enjoy your days very well
There are so many reason to prove it
I began to understand why

They said that you have changed
But why you keep repeating the same mistakes?
It's your nature to build the bonds

So many times,
I've been confused by your acts
Though you always pretending to be calm

Will you come back after a long trip?
Will you return to these days?
I never wish that kind of hope
But i keep asking the same question

I took a new direction where the ray left off
I lost myself and falling inside the labyrinth
Nowhere to go and it's too dark to see

I keep walking even without destination
Nobody understand what i'm aiming for
Maybe that is the way i'm expressing my confusion

This is not about a childish fairy tale
When everything starts from sorrow and sadness
To the happy ending without suffering anything
Stop talking about imagination and back to the present

I need to keep silent without words flowing around
Nobody understand this eternal moment in this time
Don't act like you know me very well because it's useless

Neither this feelings nor that mind
Suddenly making a conclusion without even thinking
Could your heart and your mind runs harmonically?
Surely after that we could make a big decision

I never know that someone know me very well
But please stop talking about me as if you know me
It was a big mistake for mistaken me with someone else

If you think that your words are your strength
Soon you will lose unconsciously without facing anything
My only wish for now, i want to say it
I believe someone will call my name

You could let your tears flooding your face
I want you to share it with me, but... Why?

Until today i don't understand
Why you have to do that things?
I have been so confused because of your answer
If i could understand your feeling
Maybe i don't pretending to be ok right now

There is a time when i really really hate you so much
And even i have already bored to see you
Even more i heard everything about you
Even more again i still remember your bad habits
All of them really make me feel uneasy

But i don't know why that feeling slowly faded
Little by little everything changed
Become a memorable past

If i really leave you that time
Maybe i can't forgive myself now
Because now i try to recall memories with you once again
And it was breaking this hate feeling

When i hate you all that i can do is only stay away from you
And i was hoping you will be happy someday anywhere
But now i only remember you once again
The more i try to remember the more i'll be healed from the past

I wish everything will return back to normal or even better
It's ok if not same as before
The most important things now is gather all the pieces of these feelings
Into a picture of the better future

Though i can't do anything now
Just looking at your smile and reading your messages made me happy
But then i don't understand again
If you and me repeat that moment when the words 'Farewell' spoken out

Maybe i made up this decision
Because there were no other choice
I even thought that this isn't from my heart
That day seems memorable

If we remember far to yesterday
I won't forget the moments
When we met and laughing together
But then, our tears rolled suddenly

I see your picture hanging in my room
But you're not the same anymore
The pieces of my heart are missing something

Even in the day when i said goodbye too you
I still thought of you very well
The sky was beautiful back then

As blue as the ocean
That was my feeling toward it
I wanted to say thank you but
It seems so bittersweet to think about it

Maybe i was too pushy to think about this decision
But with the strength inside me
I will keep this as a promise and not as a regret
Even though i'm feeling so

Could we cry as much as we want for now?
However these flattering days are passed
Our memories will grow deep in our hearts
As long as we remember

I want to believe and raise our chins up today
No matter how the seasons change
Are you ready?

I've heard too much words for now
It's not about the past or the future
It's just because you don't understand
The real meaning behind of this

When hope meets wish at the same time
I'm pretty sure that it will be granted
No matter how it will be taken
At least we just trying to believe

To love is to trust
But sometimes both of them can't get along well
It's just a line that crossed over the border

When i hear the words about nonsense
Talking so steadily as if knows everything
It's just plain useless to reply it
What i don't need for now is just words

Anyone would notice if we acts different suddenly
But just some of them wants to correct that
Is regret always come with reaction?
I don't have a time to remember that kind of things

To answer is to choose
We need a clear explanation for each questions
Even if it doesn't have any answer at all

Could we make people forget about us?
That's an appropriate questions for now
Would you like to forget about me today?
That was a perfect question at the moment

At first we meet
You gave me such an innocent smile
Without telling anything

What i've done?
I even didn't say anything to you
I let you go without "Good-bye" or even "Thank You"

If you were the one i've always dreamed of
I will always searching for you
I will keep every part of you

The distance between us aren't that far
You can see me and i can see you
Could we start over this moment?

What i've seen?
I'm watching for you from afar
Maybe you didn't realize that
But i can't get near you

When you're there
Courage seems running away
As if i'm scared of your existence

I want to find you wherever you may be
But, you always know how to protect yourself
Against all of these unknown things around you

The more you try to defend yourself
The more i'll searching for you
Until i could smile for you

That night i've seen
Starry nights even if it's dark
I have just realize that
There is a star that shines more brightly among all the stars

I remember once again
I want to be like that
Shines in the dark and shines more brightly among all

I remember once again
So many pain that i have to feel
Until i become like now that shines brightly

If i remember once again about me
That time, i crying a lot because it was very sad
I don't understand why i should feel like this

But, until now, i'm still crying
But not because i'm sad but very happy
Even i can't hold it anymore

If tears is not exist in this world
I don't know that i'm happy or not
Because, even if i know that smiles
Is easy to understand with others
I have just realize that tears means something fullfilled

Now, i only can smiles everytime
Seeing something had changing
And i have understand now
There's no regrets, there's only thank you

Hey there lovers,
Hiding your identity just for yourself
Acts like a child or sometimes comical
What does it takes to love someone?

Don't being too nervous
As if it wasn't yourself as well

However far you will be separated
As long you believe and remember
It's really near

You even try to sacrificing yourself up
In order to protect something precious right now
What you need is just confidence

Hey there lovers,
Stupid things are become sweet things
Light wounds are become deep pain
What does it takes to keep up your love?

Moving around so arrogant with pride
As if you are the ruler of the world

Although you have bring your time so steadly
It seems that not enough to satisfy
It's really extravagant

Didn't notice for anything that close to you
Is become your nature right now
What you need is just attention

Hey there lovers,
Joke are not casually happened
But it's necessarily happened
Quarreling will build you up
And forgiveness will protect you up