I sing to you
the last song
It reminds me
a yellow dress
That moment
in my arms
means forever
in my heart
The full moon
looked at you
Our short stories
will never end
Let's walk away
You must be brave
To let it go
Only one wish
I have left
Days are passing by like flock of bird in the orange sky
Fetching the sunset and closing the curtain of dusk
The cloudy sky has no clue about sincerity
Though it's just waiting for the dusk
How is life for you?
You used to believe that
You will carry a big scar behind your back
Now that you see it by yourself
How do you feel about that?
Don't you feel so proud right now?
Nobody really understands you
Even after several years passed
Do you still have the courage to believe?
You never wish for happiness, don't you?
You let everyone feel what is love
With your knowledge you teach them how to live
Now you have gone to the place where we will never see you again
Let's hope that someday
Your light inside you shining brightly more than anything
The night was so dark
The rain was too heavy
I can't even see the stars that night
I wish i won't meet this pain anymore
Because things are going so fast recently
There are too many conclusions and reasons
What would you think about me now?
What would i think about you now?
You see, i don't want to escape from this one
I don't want to cry
Because i have to end the disguise soon
I keep up all of your feelings without tears
You keep up all of your feelings without smile
I don't know if my heart is already ruined
You don't know if your heart is already healed
I always trying to smile pretending to be okay
Even the fact isn't always like that
I think i find someone who was treats and serves me better
I want to said that i'm happy with that
But if i didn't end the disguise soon
I'm just remake another disguises after all
Now, i'm realized that everything is going to be alright
If i'm not sacrifices something to get other along well
Things are go better and everything can get along well
I want to cry
Because i've already end the disguise
I keep up all of your feelings with smile
You keep up all of your feelings without tears
Until today i don't understand
Why you have to do that things?
I have been so confused because of your answer
If i could understand your feeling
Maybe i don't pretending to be ok right now
There is a time when i really really hate you so much
And even i have already bored to see you
Even more i heard everything about you
Even more again i still remember your bad habits
All of them really make me feel uneasy
But i don't know why that feeling slowly faded
Little by little everything changed
Become a memorable past
If i really leave you that time
Maybe i can't forgive myself now
Because now i try to recall memories with you once again
And it was breaking this hate feeling
When i hate you all that i can do is only stay away from you
And i was hoping you will be happy someday anywhere
But now i only remember you once again
The more i try to remember the more i'll be healed from the past
I wish everything will return back to normal or even better
It's ok if not same as before
The most important things now is gather all the pieces of these feelings
Into a picture of the better future
Though i can't do anything now
Just looking at your smile and reading your messages made me happy
But then i don't understand again
If you and me repeat that moment when the words 'Farewell' spoken out
Under the moonlight night sky
So many things that I can feel in this present moment
Many things can not be expressed in words
But I have choose the road which I think is right
I think that the road had I traveled so far
Giving me a valuable lesson even that made me fall
Therefore I can't take a bigger steps
Although finally I can breathe calmly again
Maybe the winds blow harder than usual
But the heat of the sun will still be the same as usual
If you feel there is a sad thing
I'm here to feel what you feel
I wasn't sad anymore but why these tears keep falling
I'm still asleep, although overshadowed by feelings of guilt
I even still could see you even if you're not there
No one knows but only myself knows that very well
The scar in this heart will change someday
Turned into a warmth that can I give
To anyone who would do anything for a smile
That's why I regard it as the most valuable thing
Maybe i made up this decision
Because there were no other choice
I even thought that this isn't from my heart
That day seems memorable
If we remember far to yesterday
I won't forget the moments
When we met and laughing together
But then, our tears rolled suddenly
I see your picture hanging in my room
But you're not the same anymore
The pieces of my heart are missing something
Even in the day when i said goodbye too you
I still thought of you very well
The sky was beautiful back then
As blue as the ocean
That was my feeling toward it
I wanted to say thank you but
It seems so bittersweet to think about it
Maybe i was too pushy to think about this decision
But with the strength inside me
I will keep this as a promise and not as a regret
Even though i'm feeling so
Could we cry as much as we want for now?
However these flattering days are passed
Our memories will grow deep in our hearts
As long as we remember
I want to believe and raise our chins up today
No matter how the seasons change
Are you ready?
One day i've dreaming about wonderland
I never imagine that you would be there
You look so happy without realize that i was there
I want to recall that memories
That we spent together in the past
I remember your smile are so tender and gentle
I see you walking back then
You're so happy about it but i can't reach you
I pray that someday maybe this tears will reach you
When i wake up from that nightmare
I burst into tears again
I don't understand why that is really hurt
I'm searching for your picture in my room
Wish that this tears wouldn't be meaningless
I hate this embrassing pain so much
I remember your profile once again
I don't know since when i hate you this much
But deep in my hearts you still have a place
Being selfish and crybaby doesn't break this chains
I'm tired of this moments already
I want to go through this sleepless nights
However how many times i crying before
You will never come back again at once
There's a wish that cannot be granted
The time won't go back although we have pray for a years
I'm here, You're here
That's all, That's everything
*Note: Credits to Hamasaki Ayumi and the song "flower garden" for the last part >,<
If only the day when i should leave this place
Come so early and so suddenly
There will be a moment encounter
Feeling so depressed with full of regrets
The cloudy sky today has giving a sign
Decisions made because of the pressure of these feelings
No more words flows out from the living beings
As if the world begins to silence
What is the answer behind this truth?
Should people answer it with another tears?
Even if the wound in this heart has began to ache once again
I dare to say that i'm okay
What is the reason for telling lies?
Even so, that's not the worst thing to remember
Because if we tell too much, the words flows too much
The truth will become blurred
Please, make an excuse for the sake of yourself
Everyone will go to the same place
But not in the same way as they think
That's why, we will surely together someday
Let's make an appropriate life
In exchange of sacrificing something
When the day where hesitation and despair meets
Surely, i will fight against it
With all my strength left inside me
I will turn the sky become blue
If only you understand...