My Words, Your Words

Sweet and delicate
But who knows what's inside
Mystery revealed but yet
Curiosity ignited
Why is that so?

Smiles and tears
Like lanterns under the moon
Count your blessings
Glorious impression is the source
Why is that so?

Scents and flavors
In every corner of a round shape
Noise of love resonated
Overcome the bareness of lust
Why is that so?

Feelings and thoughts
of losing are around you
Roaming like fireflies
Stalking at the door
Why is that so?

It's complicated
Just follow the light
Let's not blown away
Too much sugar will kill you

All I can see around me is just a fragments
Maybe it was me who shattered into pieces
I know that you're in denial

I just don't understand
When good intentions are rejected
Nothing is important anymore right?
You should leave the fake hope
I don't want to see fake smile anymore
You shake your head
I should know from the beginning
You're just an illusion of happiness

Two of us believing the same future
Which will never come
You're not a lifeless doll
That always putting a mask of happiness in your face
You know we're so devastated inside

I'm weak, if you say I'm strong, I'm lying
Tenderness and selfishness, I just can't see it anymore
How do you see me? I can't see the real shape of myself

I'm not desperately asking for compassion
Tell me a sweet lie and this body will be devoured
Infect me with your lies and fill me with your poison
Please show me madness

Something inside me has disappeared
Even if you don't believe me
Just face it, be hurt, feel the pain

Maybe I'm just afraid of being hurt by believing but...
I have the courage to let go of something and...
What you see within me is something you have done in the past so...
I will stay as myself forever

I was raised with so much love
Loneliness, Pain, Parting away
You teach me all of them

In order to become stronger
You give me a pair of wings
I shout, I hurt, I struggle
Until I understand what my tears are for

I want to meet another person
Who could reflect your image
I want to be loved by that person

You taught me that accepting means love
Because you always accept me
You show me the image of the future and teach me
How to walk in that way

How could I forget that day
When I couldn't treat myself?
Only you can understand my expression
When I'm happy or When I'm sad
I can't hide it from you

Why do I forget that I was raised with so much love?
Who is the person that always accept me?
The words "Thank You" isn't enough
To express my honest gratitude
Can you show me love once again?

Sorry if I couldn't say this clearly until now
"You're the only person who can show me love"
I keep repeating that words for a long time and
I can't hold my tears anymore

Have I lost a valuable thing in my life?
I'm not pretending to be grown up
But the time is behind me, chasing me
I'm already grown up

I'm so grateful to reality
Who teach me to cry and smile
So I won't looking for an answer anymore

I don't care if somebody know me very well
Who shed tears as if I was laughing
And laugh as if I was crying
Saying goodbye to memories is just like me

Is it like this? Is it always the same?
I couldn't get used to each other
But I tried, I did my best
I'm just trying to remember

I'm so grateful to reality
Who hurt me yet teach me struggling
So I can laugh to my innocence in the past

I understand what is the meaning of your tears
So I'm singing a love song
I know I didn't lose anything yet

The happiness is gone with the wind
Yet you didn't realize that
I hope someday you will understand
How fragile is our life

Long, Long time ago
I remember someone who always taught me
A warming and soothing fairytale
I wonder where that person now?

Sometimes I want to see the future
Decorated with sprinkle stars
Yet sometimes I start to have doubt
About things I always took for granted

Where is the nostalgic color I've always want to see?
I know if I keep moving forward I will reach it someday
When I think about the future in front of me
It's shining, so far away under the sky

When the joy and the pain
Living together as one
I'll surely rise without no regrets

I will never let my dream go
Let's embrace it with hope
Because we will return to that place
Filled with tears of happiness

The falling snow of this night is very beautiful
White colors over the orange lights under the cobalt sky
My heart is as cold as that night today
Neither hope nor despair comes to me

You said to me, "I'm proud of you"
But you never care what I feel
And you never understand what I want

Sometimes I wish upon that shooting star
I don't want tomorrow comes so early
Why the future is never listened to me,
And the past always dictating me?

I want to see the scenery of this night once again
When it comes to me, surely I will cry again
Does it okay if I keep shedding my tears like this?

I will never listen to the past anymore like the future does
Because of this present, I will keep living in a good path
When the season changes, you will find the answer
The falling petal of that season would surely greet us

If you can't have what you want
Start wanting what you have got
It's not whether you win or lose
It's how you play the game

Life is a choice no matter how you think of it
Do you want to face it and enjoy it?
Or you don't want to face anything or enjoy anything?
Make your opportunity and go forward

You are doing the things that you like
You are doing the things that you want
It is natural and normal
But sometimes forgotten

If we could survive in problems
We will always achieve something
If there's no problems so there's no achievement

After all is said and done
A lot more will have been said than done
It is natural and normal
But sometimes forgotten

Seeing everyone under the same sky
Taking the same pain and
Passing the same rain every time
Giving me strength to keep standing

If this world were split into
Two groups of weak persons and strong persons
I'd rather be in the weak person groups
I always want to be a weak person

Without this kind of pain that i take
I won't be myself like today
Voyage is learning and taking the pain
Time will heal if you could use it wisely

Without this scar that i have now
I won't be myself like you know
Togetherness was saved me from the past
I realized that i'm not alone

Any precious things that we bring
Will always accompanied by the pain
Even if you're as strong as the mountain
Small things may crush you from inside

Every choice in this life
I'll choose it with confidence
So, it is i am of myself

Let's go together to fight cruelty of reality

One day i've dreaming about wonderland
I never imagine that you would be there
You look so happy without realize that i was there

I want to recall that memories
That we spent together in the past
I remember your smile are so tender and gentle

I see you walking back then
You're so happy about it but i can't reach you
I pray that someday maybe this tears will reach you

When i wake up from that nightmare
I burst into tears again
I don't understand why that is really hurt

I'm searching for your picture in my room
Wish that this tears wouldn't be meaningless
I hate this embrassing pain so much

I remember your profile once again
I don't know since when i hate you this much
But deep in my hearts you still have a place

Being selfish and crybaby doesn't break this chains
I'm tired of this moments already
I want to go through this sleepless nights

However how many times i crying before
You will never come back again at once
There's a wish that cannot be granted
The time won't go back although we have pray for a years

I'm here, You're here
That's all, That's everything

*Note: Credits to Hamasaki Ayumi and the song "flower garden" for the last part >,<

Here, in my room
I've been showing so many feelings
That no one else would know
Which direction i'll go afterwards

So many things that i want to give to everyone
This feeling, This pain, This moments, please accept it all as a good memories

At this kind of moment, the words that running around in my mind is only "Thank You"
Even i can't say it out loud, i think anyone could understand the shape of my face

Here, in my room
I've been flooding this place with overflowing tears
I'm not sad or anything but this is the result of each memories

I've been searching the perfect words to express this feeling
But, it's not like me who always telling something with uncertain thoughts

At this kind of moment, the only thing that i could do is just humming the messages
Even i can't do it properly but at least i didn't hurt anyone else

I want to protect that time, so no one can interrupt the story
I want to protect that experience, so you can embrace that moment

If everyone could understand what does it means to take the pain,
They will welcome the pain peacefully, not forcefully

Here, in my room
I understand it all..