My Words, Your Words

I've always been living in the present
Spring has come and Winter has gone
Summer will come soon and Fall follows next
It was inevitable, I repeated such a life

What did you saw yesterday?
What do you see today?
What will you see tomorrow?
Can you embrace them all?
I believe you can

Do you still have the same dream?
Four seasons has passed, what is it like?
Do you give up with your love?
Where is that love now?
I don't have even one regret

Again and again I want to shout
Not to forget you at any time
But, you were crying and your voices ceased
How do I look in your eyes?

I wonder if
When I fall in love next time
Will it be with someone who has your name again?
Will you smiling together with the falling petals?
I want to feel the warm breezy wind of spring once again

Please ring that bell
The bell that bears happiness tone
So I can feel the warmth of Spring
Even though the snow is falling

Time has passed
If crying makes it better, then cry
Will you?

I was raised with so much love
Loneliness, Pain, Parting away
You teach me all of them

In order to become stronger
You give me a pair of wings
I shout, I hurt, I struggle
Until I understand what my tears are for

I want to meet another person
Who could reflect your image
I want to be loved by that person

You taught me that accepting means love
Because you always accept me
You show me the image of the future and teach me
How to walk in that way

How could I forget that day
When I couldn't treat myself?
Only you can understand my expression
When I'm happy or When I'm sad
I can't hide it from you

Why do I forget that I was raised with so much love?
Who is the person that always accept me?
The words "Thank You" isn't enough
To express my honest gratitude
Can you show me love once again?

Sorry if I couldn't say this clearly until now
"You're the only person who can show me love"
I keep repeating that words for a long time and
I can't hold my tears anymore

It's been a year since I know you
You were so clumsy yet funny
I was an innocent person back then

I tried to tracing the old footprints
The path we have chosen seems different
We keep running as if never tired
I wonder why?

Now I realized that we're completely lost
We were raised with those feelings
No hope yet No despair
Clear like the boundless sky

When I'm gone somewhere
I hope you will searching for me
Even if you're lost in the eternal paradise
Where we will reunite together again

When I arrived at my home
There was a brown scarf in front of my door
Instead of you who should give that present to me

The Happy Birthday message from the scarf
Will always bring the warm feeling to me
Even if I couldn't meet you that night
I feel like you are very close to me

Since that day I have changed
Now I understand the meaning of your kindness
Every time I remember the brown scarf
My tears would dropped once again

When I'm gone somewhere
I hope you will find me
Even if you're trapped in the reality
Where our memories will live forever

The night was so dark
The rain was too heavy
I can't even see the stars that night

I wish i won't meet this pain anymore
Because things are going so fast recently
There are too many conclusions and reasons

What would you think about me now?
What would i think about you now?
You see, i don't want to escape from this one

I don't want to cry
Because i have to end the disguise soon
I keep up all of your feelings without tears
You keep up all of your feelings without smile

I don't know if my heart is already ruined
You don't know if your heart is already healed
I always trying to smile pretending to be okay
Even the fact isn't always like that

I think i find someone who was treats and serves me better
I want to said that i'm happy with that
But if i didn't end the disguise soon
I'm just remake another disguises after all

Now, i'm realized that everything is going to be alright
If i'm not sacrifices something to get other along well
Things are go better and everything can get along well

I want to cry
Because i've already end the disguise
I keep up all of your feelings with smile
You keep up all of your feelings without tears

Until today i don't understand
Why you have to do that things?
I have been so confused because of your answer
If i could understand your feeling
Maybe i don't pretending to be ok right now

There is a time when i really really hate you so much
And even i have already bored to see you
Even more i heard everything about you
Even more again i still remember your bad habits
All of them really make me feel uneasy

But i don't know why that feeling slowly faded
Little by little everything changed
Become a memorable past

If i really leave you that time
Maybe i can't forgive myself now
Because now i try to recall memories with you once again
And it was breaking this hate feeling

When i hate you all that i can do is only stay away from you
And i was hoping you will be happy someday anywhere
But now i only remember you once again
The more i try to remember the more i'll be healed from the past

I wish everything will return back to normal or even better
It's ok if not same as before
The most important things now is gather all the pieces of these feelings
Into a picture of the better future

Though i can't do anything now
Just looking at your smile and reading your messages made me happy
But then i don't understand again
If you and me repeat that moment when the words 'Farewell' spoken out

I'm just a small existence carrying a burden named fear
I'm always thinking that i'm important to others
Despite the fact aren't that sure for me to believe

The more i try to believe,
The more my tears have fall,
I'm just trapped in my loneliness masked by happiness

My heart is already crying hopelessly
Without any signs to stopped someday
But my minds still hoping that someday,
Every tears i dropped would become a precious jewel

I want to see you again someday
Carrying a promise that wouldn't fulfilled easily
Because when that day come,
Maybe we're not the same anymore

It's not what i want
It's not what i wish
It's what i don't understand
It's something against the fate

Again, i turn to you
Shedding my tears again
And sinking into tomorrow

Hey there lovers,
Hiding your identity just for yourself
Acts like a child or sometimes comical
What does it takes to love someone?

Don't being too nervous
As if it wasn't yourself as well

However far you will be separated
As long you believe and remember
It's really near

You even try to sacrificing yourself up
In order to protect something precious right now
What you need is just confidence

Hey there lovers,
Stupid things are become sweet things
Light wounds are become deep pain
What does it takes to keep up your love?

Moving around so arrogant with pride
As if you are the ruler of the world

Although you have bring your time so steadly
It seems that not enough to satisfy
It's really extravagant

Didn't notice for anything that close to you
Is become your nature right now
What you need is just attention

Hey there lovers,
Joke are not casually happened
But it's necessarily happened
Quarreling will build you up
And forgiveness will protect you up

Here, in my room
I've been showing so many feelings
That no one else would know
Which direction i'll go afterwards

So many things that i want to give to everyone
This feeling, This pain, This moments, please accept it all as a good memories

At this kind of moment, the words that running around in my mind is only "Thank You"
Even i can't say it out loud, i think anyone could understand the shape of my face

Here, in my room
I've been flooding this place with overflowing tears
I'm not sad or anything but this is the result of each memories

I've been searching the perfect words to express this feeling
But, it's not like me who always telling something with uncertain thoughts

At this kind of moment, the only thing that i could do is just humming the messages
Even i can't do it properly but at least i didn't hurt anyone else

I want to protect that time, so no one can interrupt the story
I want to protect that experience, so you can embrace that moment

If everyone could understand what does it means to take the pain,
They will welcome the pain peacefully, not forcefully

Here, in my room
I understand it all..