My Words, Your Words

By not knowing what lies ahead
I keep on and keep on walking
By not realizing what will get me
I stay and stay until the morning

This world is vast and broad
But our minds are greater
But our bonds are deeper

Nothing ever goes wild
Like a smoke without fire
We're not chasing freedom
But we're bound and restricted

I'm not fixing things
I'm just trying to build it
I'm not smothering it
I'm just enjoying things

When things are no longer
Like it used to be anymore
It's time for you and me
To realize where are we belong
To question what are we doing

Maybe it's an end to a certain journey
But it's a start to another adventure
The journey of finding you and you
The adventure of knowing myself

I'm not fulfilling any promise
I'm not regretting anything
Because I live with my head held high
Because I'm not looking down to any of you

I tried, I keep on trying, I'm doing my best
I tried my best to follow the order
I put all of my efforts into it
Because I know that when I put everything into it
Everything is going to be okay

But sometimes reality is just cruel
But sometimes everything went worse than expected
But sometimes you have to lower down your expectation
But sometimes we only could listen without saying anything
But sometimes we have to cry instead of laugh or smile
But sometimes all of your efforts means nothing
But sometimes human is far worse than you thought

At that time, my words seems so powerless
Being unable to express my disappointment
Is it hard to appreciate a very simple thing in this life?
Is it impossible for us to accept everything as it is?
Why I always ended up like this?

Even if I have to cry until no more tears left, I don't think it's needed
I don't want you to know, let me taste all my tears by myself
Even if I have to scream until I lost my voice, I don't think it's important
I don't want you to listen,  let me feel all my pain by myself

Maybe I need your attention
Maybe I want your appreciation
Maybe I wish that you care for me
Maybe I'm no longer a human
Maybe I'm just selfish

I'm sorry for being like this
I don't want you to know
I know all those things are for me
I know I will be better after this
I know I was wrong all those time
I just want to believe

Take me to the place where the sun is dark
The place where i can't hear anything
Nobody knows and nobody cares

I feel that i have lost everything to tears
I couldn't smile as natural as always
Little efforts even that breath-taking

I'm appears as if i'm disappears
I'm here in this place without no one realize
Just leave me alone in the corner of this world

Simply talking without believing are worthless
I found myself frozen against those sharp words
If you think that i'm the worst,
I feel that i'm even worse than you imagine

It's over already
I will accept it as a lesson
Tears does not end as a sin
Someday i'll be better

Now, i just want to cry
As much as the rain falls
Leave me alone and don't ever call me
Let me cry among the stars

I really want to tell you something
But it's over already and it's the end
The story has finally come to an end

Good-bye,
I believe we will meet again
In another chance

I'm the one who always forgotten
It's not about care with each other
Kindness and Tenderness doesn't suits me
All i have to do is just keep strong alone

I remember the day that i want to forget
It was such a pain that your name didn't mentioned
Do they appear as an illusion?
I would wish it was all a lie

Words are passing by
But nothing caught my attention
A lot of sensation has spread out
But nothing to do with me there

Does everyone think that i'm powerless?
Someday i'll proof it to the people
Forgotten things are the nicest thing to remember

Loneliness has teach me a new strength and will
To surpass everything ordinary as people think
As long as i become stronger with this feelings
I will continue to survive in this narrow cruel road
With or without you

I am asking to myself for sure
"Can i walk through that door to tomorrow?"
Sometimes i don't want to pass a new day
It is too bright, i can't see anything

Living in the present was such a gift
Leaving trace from these roads aren't bad
I walk on without my chin up
Heading for another places that i don't know

Since when that i'm so forgotten?
I really don't care about it all very much
But people sometimes are really annoying

If my wish were granted
I don't want to face the future anymore
I believe there's no painful again

As shadows follows light
The darkness cannot be destroyed
After all, as far as i go
Despair and Hope keeps following me

If we judge anything easily with own two eyes
Without thinking others deeply
Someday we will leave a scar
With an embarrassing pain

Everything that started with anger
Will ended with shameless feeling

I regretting myself for judging easily
Now I know that tomorrow should come
In order to save everyone
In order to changes everything

If i ever think that something very annoying
That's not because others
It's because of myself that never understand
What these words are for...

As far as we seek the freedom
The more we'll be so tired
Chasing one after another
Steadily we come to an end

There are times when we can't understand others
Whenever it may be happen in this life
This heart will searching for loneliness

When you see the difference
Between you and the others
You may seem so powerless
Because you don't know everything

If you force your will again and again
Soon you will be distinguished
Like a flames in the gust of wind

We're all not the same
Even though we face similarity in many other ways
Desperation and Revelation might calls you
But Expectation won't come that easily

How many times we rejected?
Even though it won't always happen
What does it takes to enter other minds?
Everyone has their own world

Is everyone experiencing the same feeling?
Until the time meets an end someday
Should we need to make everything is the same?
So many uncomparable world in this world

I'm just a small existence carrying a burden named fear
I'm always thinking that i'm important to others
Despite the fact aren't that sure for me to believe

The more i try to believe,
The more my tears have fall,
I'm just trapped in my loneliness masked by happiness

My heart is already crying hopelessly
Without any signs to stopped someday
But my minds still hoping that someday,
Every tears i dropped would become a precious jewel

I want to see you again someday
Carrying a promise that wouldn't fulfilled easily
Because when that day come,
Maybe we're not the same anymore

It's not what i want
It's not what i wish
It's what i don't understand
It's something against the fate

Again, i turn to you
Shedding my tears again
And sinking into tomorrow

Hey there lovers,
Hiding your identity just for yourself
Acts like a child or sometimes comical
What does it takes to love someone?

Don't being too nervous
As if it wasn't yourself as well

However far you will be separated
As long you believe and remember
It's really near

You even try to sacrificing yourself up
In order to protect something precious right now
What you need is just confidence

Hey there lovers,
Stupid things are become sweet things
Light wounds are become deep pain
What does it takes to keep up your love?

Moving around so arrogant with pride
As if you are the ruler of the world

Although you have bring your time so steadly
It seems that not enough to satisfy
It's really extravagant

Didn't notice for anything that close to you
Is become your nature right now
What you need is just attention

Hey there lovers,
Joke are not casually happened
But it's necessarily happened
Quarreling will build you up
And forgiveness will protect you up