My Words, Your Words

Have you given up on living?
A momentary encounter
It's unexpected
...and changes everything

When you put a big smile in your face
You seem crying out loud inside
I wonder how should we call it?

Maybe it's the Truth, Happiness, or Hope
It's all yours, It's belong to you
When did people become so faithful against tomorrow?

Have you given up on believing?
For a moment I know it
It's miraculous
...and starts everything

When you say that everything is gonna be alright
You feel scared about small things inside
Don't you know that nothing is real?

It must be the Lies, Sadness, or Despair
It's all yours, It's all with you
Why did people become so fearful against tomorrow?

We always hate to lose
Being so stubborn and selfish
Is this the real me?

This trembling finger is such a restless feeling
My heart is scattered within my mind
I'm hugging my knees in the corner of this world

How many path should I choose?
I no can think of anything but you
A melody of sorrowful tune played in my heart
And break everything apart into pieces

How do I survive from this?
I can't exetend my hands to reach you
You, The illusion that dwelling inside me
Finally began to sparkling

As hard as a diamond
That's what a heart should be
If tomorrow never exist
The word 'stronger' wouldn't exist as well

When someone taught me about empty feeling
The pain goes deeper and deeper
I want to become an unwithering flower

How could I say 'Let's go'?
I only embrace this moment by myself
There is only one thing very important to me now
And you know what the answer is

How do I escape from this?
I'm going to see the lights without you
You, the image from the future inside me
Is now at my hand

As beautiful as a diamond
That's what a heart should be
If the future never exist
The word 'brighter' wouldn't exist as well

Take me to the place where the sun is dark
The place where i can't hear anything
Nobody knows and nobody cares

I feel that i have lost everything to tears
I couldn't smile as natural as always
Little efforts even that breath-taking

I'm appears as if i'm disappears
I'm here in this place without no one realize
Just leave me alone in the corner of this world

Simply talking without believing are worthless
I found myself frozen against those sharp words
If you think that i'm the worst,
I feel that i'm even worse than you imagine

It's over already
I will accept it as a lesson
Tears does not end as a sin
Someday i'll be better

Now, i just want to cry
As much as the rain falls
Leave me alone and don't ever call me
Let me cry among the stars

I really want to tell you something
But it's over already and it's the end
The story has finally come to an end

Good-bye,
I believe we will meet again
In another chance

Until today i don't understand
Why you have to do that things?
I have been so confused because of your answer
If i could understand your feeling
Maybe i don't pretending to be ok right now

There is a time when i really really hate you so much
And even i have already bored to see you
Even more i heard everything about you
Even more again i still remember your bad habits
All of them really make me feel uneasy

But i don't know why that feeling slowly faded
Little by little everything changed
Become a memorable past

If i really leave you that time
Maybe i can't forgive myself now
Because now i try to recall memories with you once again
And it was breaking this hate feeling

When i hate you all that i can do is only stay away from you
And i was hoping you will be happy someday anywhere
But now i only remember you once again
The more i try to remember the more i'll be healed from the past

I wish everything will return back to normal or even better
It's ok if not same as before
The most important things now is gather all the pieces of these feelings
Into a picture of the better future

Though i can't do anything now
Just looking at your smile and reading your messages made me happy
But then i don't understand again
If you and me repeat that moment when the words 'Farewell' spoken out

I am asking to myself for sure
"Can i walk through that door to tomorrow?"
Sometimes i don't want to pass a new day
It is too bright, i can't see anything

Living in the present was such a gift
Leaving trace from these roads aren't bad
I walk on without my chin up
Heading for another places that i don't know

Since when that i'm so forgotten?
I really don't care about it all very much
But people sometimes are really annoying

If my wish were granted
I don't want to face the future anymore
I believe there's no painful again

As shadows follows light
The darkness cannot be destroyed
After all, as far as i go
Despair and Hope keeps following me

If we judge anything easily with own two eyes
Without thinking others deeply
Someday we will leave a scar
With an embarrassing pain

Everything that started with anger
Will ended with shameless feeling

I regretting myself for judging easily
Now I know that tomorrow should come
In order to save everyone
In order to changes everything

If i ever think that something very annoying
That's not because others
It's because of myself that never understand
What these words are for...

I'm just a small existence carrying a burden named fear
I'm always thinking that i'm important to others
Despite the fact aren't that sure for me to believe

The more i try to believe,
The more my tears have fall,
I'm just trapped in my loneliness masked by happiness

My heart is already crying hopelessly
Without any signs to stopped someday
But my minds still hoping that someday,
Every tears i dropped would become a precious jewel

I want to see you again someday
Carrying a promise that wouldn't fulfilled easily
Because when that day come,
Maybe we're not the same anymore

It's not what i want
It's not what i wish
It's what i don't understand
It's something against the fate

Again, i turn to you
Shedding my tears again
And sinking into tomorrow

Being able to smile for each situation is good
But, it's really tiring if it's fake or doesn't go in that way

Today, in your mind, i can't see a war between hope and disappointment
But your face shows it all and anyone would think the same.

Don't blame on anyone else unless you can proof it all.
At least, you aren't looking so confuse to keep the atmosphere calm

However your heart are foggy, don't close your eyes,
It'll make you get out from the line and losing your self-control

You can't express it with your half-hearted attitude, in the end,
You will fall in regret, and protect yourself from despair

Isn't it useless to bringing so many words to the public place?
Isn't it shameful for you to acts without thinking?

When people around you doesn't match your standards,
You don't have any reason to act freely with your own emotion

Does it hurts you very much until you realize where are you right now?
As long as you know what you do, the present will able to understand you very well