My Words, Your Words

I tried, I keep on trying, I'm doing my best
I tried my best to follow the order
I put all of my efforts into it
Because I know that when I put everything into it
Everything is going to be okay

But sometimes reality is just cruel
But sometimes everything went worse than expected
But sometimes you have to lower down your expectation
But sometimes we only could listen without saying anything
But sometimes we have to cry instead of laugh or smile
But sometimes all of your efforts means nothing
But sometimes human is far worse than you thought

At that time, my words seems so powerless
Being unable to express my disappointment
Is it hard to appreciate a very simple thing in this life?
Is it impossible for us to accept everything as it is?
Why I always ended up like this?

Even if I have to cry until no more tears left, I don't think it's needed
I don't want you to know, let me taste all my tears by myself
Even if I have to scream until I lost my voice, I don't think it's important
I don't want you to listen,  let me feel all my pain by myself

Maybe I need your attention
Maybe I want your appreciation
Maybe I wish that you care for me
Maybe I'm no longer a human
Maybe I'm just selfish

I'm sorry for being like this
I don't want you to know
I know all those things are for me
I know I will be better after this
I know I was wrong all those time
I just want to believe

I'm the one who always forgotten
It's not about care with each other
Kindness and Tenderness doesn't suits me
All i have to do is just keep strong alone

I remember the day that i want to forget
It was such a pain that your name didn't mentioned
Do they appear as an illusion?
I would wish it was all a lie

Words are passing by
But nothing caught my attention
A lot of sensation has spread out
But nothing to do with me there

Does everyone think that i'm powerless?
Someday i'll proof it to the people
Forgotten things are the nicest thing to remember

Loneliness has teach me a new strength and will
To surpass everything ordinary as people think
As long as i become stronger with this feelings
I will continue to survive in this narrow cruel road
With or without you

Being able to smile for each situation is good
But, it's really tiring if it's fake or doesn't go in that way

Today, in your mind, i can't see a war between hope and disappointment
But your face shows it all and anyone would think the same.

Don't blame on anyone else unless you can proof it all.
At least, you aren't looking so confuse to keep the atmosphere calm

However your heart are foggy, don't close your eyes,
It'll make you get out from the line and losing your self-control

You can't express it with your half-hearted attitude, in the end,
You will fall in regret, and protect yourself from despair

Isn't it useless to bringing so many words to the public place?
Isn't it shameful for you to acts without thinking?

When people around you doesn't match your standards,
You don't have any reason to act freely with your own emotion

Does it hurts you very much until you realize where are you right now?
As long as you know what you do, the present will able to understand you very well