My Words, Your Words

Happiness

2012-01-28T00:34:00.000+07:00

Tell me,
What is that?
Is it when I can hug you
To express my gratitude?
Am I wrong?

I am holding nothing special
But why did you choose me?
I stand up to challenge my fate
But why you did this to me?

Teach me,
What is that?
Is it when I can say I love you
To express my feeling?
Is that true?

I stay as I am like that day
I continue to be a man of my heart
With our own actions
Let's bring this to the end

What did you get?

Butterfly

2012-01-08T22:17:00.000+07:00

Where are you going?
Fun, sad, and kind story
Where is that story now
And what is it like?

If a flower bloom by your side
I'll fall alone, quietly
And after watching your smile
I will escape from the abyss of despair

The snow and the smell of winter
Cut through today's sky
How was the scenery you saw?

Do you still remember the destination you once had?
What I wanted to be?
What I wanted to have?
Why do I keep fluttering my wings?
Why do I keep feeling a lonely aria?

If I could flow like the wind
If I could shine like the moon
I would...

Maybe it wasn't there
Maybe it was a dream or illusion
Maybe I slept too long
Yeah, maybe...

Somebody to Love

2011-12-12T11:03:00.000+07:00

I have come to this place again
The rusty place where you only can see two colors
Sadness crashed down to this place

I sometimes remember
How I love this place
and I sometimes forget
How I hate this life

I always looked cheerfully
without noticing the cries of my heart
Actually I turned my eyes from the reality
and denied the truth

I already said lots of things
But you won't understand
Because I don't even want you to understand
No matter how hard you try
It's just never good enough

Why the smiling face of that person
looks dazzling and so tender?
I feel that the person you always think
is somehow like the person I always think as well

I don't learn how to be strong
I only learn how to pretend to be strong
No one knows about the real me
Even myself

What can be done? My efforts are useless
You're just an innocent child
You need some more time to understand

No matter how hard I try
I still feel so blue
and you're still freshly green

Maybe I just have to stop or wait
Until I find...

Looking Glass

2011-08-23T12:06:00.000+07:00

All I can see around me is just a fragments
Maybe it was me who shattered into pieces
I know that you're in denial

I just don't understand
When good intentions are rejected
Nothing is important anymore right?
You should leave the fake hope
I don't want to see fake smile anymore
You shake your head
I should know from the beginning
You're just an illusion of happiness

Two of us believing the same future
Which will never come
You're not a lifeless doll
That always putting a mask of happiness in your face
You know we're so devastated inside

I'm weak, if you say I'm strong, I'm lying
Tenderness and selfishness, I just can't see it anymore
How do you see me? I can't see the real shape of myself

I'm not desperately asking for compassion
Tell me a sweet lie and this body will be devoured
Infect me with your lies and fill me with your poison
Please show me madness

Something inside me has disappeared
Even if you don't believe me
Just face it, be hurt, feel the pain

Maybe I'm just afraid of being hurt by believing but...
I have the courage to let go of something and...
What you see within me is something you have done in the past so...
I will stay as myself forever

Silent Scream

2011-08-12T23:30:00.000+07:00

When my world was in darkness
I'm denying my own existence
I wished someone would say, "It's a lie"

In this dirty world
The translucent heart has been shattered
I'm not even tired denying things
As if I'm not myself

It was too sudden
I don't know if I could accept it
Everything looks fine and active as usual
As if nothing had happened

I remember those words
I hear a voice saying "don't cry anymore"
But I don't want something pointless
You know that words are powerless

I want to keep believing
Something true and unchanging
Something pure and transparent
Something real and trustworthy

I want to believe that
We're living up our life
Until the day we're die
Until we're become stronger
Until we're become more tender

Lavender Dream

2011-05-29T11:00:00.002+07:00

Portrait of happiness is clinging to
My old self which has dead
Along with the memories from the past
There's no sounds of laughter
It's quiet like the silent night

There's nothing can take away my courage
No one is going to take away my courage
I won't stay blind and deaf to overcome this fear
Because of the haunting illusion

When the happiness is possessing me
The shape of this world probably changed

Wind of justice are blindly following the shadow
There's no sign of tomorrow
Lights of sorrow are illuminating this universe
I wonder who will survive

My inner appearance is struggling
I always seek for freedom and then suffering
I fall down without even expressing my affections

Even if you don't believe me
I'm still continue living until now
Because I'm not dead yet
I'm not fully awake

The Melancholy of Spring

2011-05-06T12:50:00.000+07:00

I've always been living in the present
Spring has come and Winter has gone
Summer will come soon and Fall follows next
It was inevitable, I repeated such a life

What did you saw yesterday?
What do you see today?
What will you see tomorrow?
Can you embrace them all?
I believe you can

Do you still have the same dream?
Four seasons has passed, what is it like?
Do you give up with your love?
Where is that love now?
I don't have even one regret

Again and again I want to shout
Not to forget you at any time
But, you were crying and your voices ceased
How do I look in your eyes?

I wonder if
When I fall in love next time
Will it be with someone who has your name again?
Will you smiling together with the falling petals?
I want to feel the warm breezy wind of spring once again

Please ring that bell
The bell that bears happiness tone
So I can feel the warmth of Spring
Even though the snow is falling

Time has passed
If crying makes it better, then cry
Will you?

Crimson River

2011-03-09T00:31:00.000+07:00

Can you feel the pain in this face?
The scattered face with no shape
All those scars are the proof
The proof that I'm the same as you

You shout, You laugh, You cry
Don't you understand?
You live a life in a normal way
Don't you think so?
This is not a game

We're sinners and you can't deny it
Searching for the lost answer desperately
To the end of the world

Can you see it? Can you feel it?
The fresh blood flows within you
When your heart is stabbed by sharp words
It's spills all over the place
Feel the pressure and be desperate
So you can keep struggling

When you feel so alive like yesterday
You act like never want to lose that feeling again
When you feel so alive like today
You're pretending didn't see the deep red scenery
Isn't that a lie?

We're sinners and you can't deny it
Stabbing and piercing one another with "Our way of life"
Revealing another face endlessly

...endlessly

Black & White

2011-02-10T13:55:00.001+07:00

Something inside my mind
Demand to attack each other
Because the darkness in your mind shines brightly

Your wish and your excitement
It's all in your head
But when terrific moments come
Everything devastated into anger
Don't tell me it was a major mistake

I can tell that your heart is hungry
Because time will tell
When your own standard eat you up

Your own standard, pride, and excitement
Wrap it all in your own mind because this is a not a game
Everyone wants to win and no one wants to lose either

I wish that novelty wears off in the moment of time
So I can go through the stormy seas
We're not above the board but we live in a land
I want to get rid of all influences

Let us cross the world's limit
To go through the borderline
Let us be blind and be deaf
To live at the present time

Liberty

2011-02-06T21:59:00.000+07:00

The sadness keeps resonating
Just like a sharp blade
Pierced through my feelings

Words that proclaimed in this universe
Is not an empty dream
Just like an empty vessel
Vacillated to the bottom of the sea

I will praise these poisonous words
So I can continue fly to the highest place
Your voice calling out for me
Always only turns into sadness

But if...

The world is began to diminish
In this land of wilderness
We only can see the loveless creature
So where is the freedom?

My powerless body is sinking to the past
If you can’t see me, then it’s like I’m not there
My darkening heart keeps yearning
If you can't feel me, then it's like I'm not there

Notes:
My first writing in 2011, for this year I'm aiming to write something more complicated, which makes the reader wondering if they can interpret it very well or not, there's no secret here actually. Anyway, please welcome 2011 and Happy (Chinese) New Year! Since I forgot~

Angel's Love

2010-12-22T11:29:00.000+07:00

I was raised with so much love
Loneliness, Pain, Parting away
You teach me all of them

In order to become stronger
You give me a pair of wings
I shout, I hurt, I struggle
Until I understand what my tears are for

I want to meet another person
Who could reflect your image
I want to be loved by that person

You taught me that accepting means love
Because you always accept me
You show me the image of the future and teach me
How to walk in that way

How could I forget that day
When I couldn't treat myself?
Only you can understand my expression
When I'm happy or When I'm sad
I can't hide it from you

Why do I forget that I was raised with so much love?
Who is the person that always accept me?
The words "Thank You" isn't enough
To express my honest gratitude
Can you show me love once again?

Sorry if I couldn't say this clearly until now
"You're the only person who can show me love"
I keep repeating that words for a long time and
I can't hold my tears anymore

Autumn Dusk

2010-11-26T12:43:00.000+07:00

Have I lost a valuable thing in my life?
I'm not pretending to be grown up
But the time is behind me, chasing me
I'm already grown up

I'm so grateful to reality
Who teach me to cry and smile
So I won't looking for an answer anymore

I don't care if somebody know me very well
Who shed tears as if I was laughing
And laugh as if I was crying
Saying goodbye to memories is just like me

Is it like this? Is it always the same?
I couldn't get used to each other
But I tried, I did my best
I'm just trying to remember

I'm so grateful to reality
Who hurt me yet teach me struggling
So I can laugh to my innocence in the past

I understand what is the meaning of your tears
So I'm singing a love song
I know I didn't lose anything yet

The happiness is gone with the wind
Yet you didn't realize that
I hope someday you will understand
How fragile is our life

A Place To Call Home

2010-11-08T22:31:00.002+07:00

Long, Long time ago
I remember someone who always taught me
A warming and soothing fairytale
I wonder where that person now?

Sometimes I want to see the future
Decorated with sprinkle stars
Yet sometimes I start to have doubt
About things I always took for granted

Where is the nostalgic color I've always want to see?
I know if I keep moving forward I will reach it someday
When I think about the future in front of me
It's shining, so far away under the sky

When the joy and the pain
Living together as one
I'll surely rise without no regrets

I will never let my dream go
Let's embrace it with hope
Because we will return to that place
Filled with tears of happiness

Fly My Sky

2010-10-22T00:16:00.000+07:00

There's no such thing called eternity
That's why I can move on and leave the universe behind
I will surpass the limit by myself and continue to smile

The shape of the future looks so plain from a distance
Blue sky, White clouds, what a common scene in the sky
Do you think that we can go beyond those common scene?

What is the thing that I expect
When everything goes normally in every way?
I know that I have no chance
So, I'm losing your smile

The universe were so small from above
I can see the peachy colors of spring
Blossoming everywhere throughout people's heart

Things that I like and I don't like
I don't care anymore at all right now
As long as I can spread my broken wings
Within this beautiful world

Nothing can stop me with this speed
Even the flawless smiling angel in this universe
I'm going to say goodbye like a butterfly
Because I know a new day is waiting for me

Lost Love

2010-10-13T22:23:00.002+07:00

There's a place where I should put my feelings
But it's already blurred, buried under the snow
The falling rose petals weakens my passion
I can't bear that kind of fear anymore

Sinking in the deep blue sea
I can't feel my tears anymore
This is the time when I have to break
The things I've raised for a long time

Pretending to be okay all the time
I've always been dreaming about something
That would never come true

I never imagined that
This kind of love could take my strength away

What is the most important things
That I lost when I started to like you?
What is the most important things
That I got when I started to like you?

But now, I can waving to yesterday
Seeking for the new journey
Looking for a place
Where I can put my feelings

Angel's Tale

2010-10-13T21:28:00.002+07:00

Where's that heavenly place beyond the sky?
Soaring over the land where the war is never ends
Everything is increasing yet decreasing at the same time

How much memories that has lost as the time goes by?
How much anxiety that has come as the time goes by?

At that time, no one will ever see the truth
Only time will tell everything
As the universe grows old
Something unchanging will be revealed

I wonder,
Who is the person that still remember me?
Who is the person that accept my existence?
I wonder who are you..

How far they have been since they left their birthplace?
How much changed are they since they choose their own path?

At this moment, no one will realize the truth
Only time will tell everything
As the universe grows old
Something that will change continuously will be revealed

I wonder,
What is this feeling that makes me remember you?
What is this feeling that makes me want to protect you?
I wonder what is this..

End of Fight

2010-07-30T19:14:00.002+07:00

When the ground shakes tremendously
Longing for the clouds in the sky
Every lost souls in this universe
Will be gone somewhere

Wanderers has losing a distance
To the path where he has to go
Another stranger suddenly appears
Carrying a decayed sword with a deep pain

The battlefield is filled with smell of the blood
If there's a dead corpse, could there be any hope?
Everything remains the same in the past

It's the world where humans live in
They defy their fate and continue living
In order to find the happiness
At the end of the world itself

Because the lost smile is in there
Because the bonds we're longing for is also there
It's where the souls will return and reunion together
The field where the roses blooming without bloodshed

Deep Inside

2010-06-23T19:39:00.002+07:00

Have you given up on living?
A momentary encounter
It's unexpected
...and changes everything

When you put a big smile in your face
You seem crying out loud inside
I wonder how should we call it?

Maybe it's the Truth, Happiness, or Hope
It's all yours, It's belong to you
When did people become so faithful against tomorrow?

Have you given up on believing?
For a moment I know it
It's miraculous
...and starts everything

When you say that everything is gonna be alright
You feel scared about small things inside
Don't you know that nothing is real?

It must be the Lies, Sadness, or Despair
It's all yours, It's all with you
Why did people become so fearful against tomorrow?

We always hate to lose
Being so stubborn and selfish
Is this the real me?

Lost & Found

2010-05-25T12:21:00.003+07:00

This trembling finger is such a restless feeling
My heart is scattered within my mind
I'm hugging my knees in the corner of this world

How many path should I choose?
I no can think of anything but you
A melody of sorrowful tune played in my heart
And break everything apart into pieces

How do I survive from this?
I can't exetend my hands to reach you
You, The illusion that dwelling inside me
Finally began to sparkling

As hard as a diamond
That's what a heart should be
If tomorrow never exist
The word 'stronger' wouldn't exist as well

When someone taught me about empty feeling
The pain goes deeper and deeper
I want to become an unwithering flower

How could I say 'Let's go'?
I only embrace this moment by myself
There is only one thing very important to me now
And you know what the answer is

How do I escape from this?
I'm going to see the lights without you
You, the image from the future inside me
Is now at my hand

As beautiful as a diamond
That's what a heart should be
If the future never exist
The word 'brighter' wouldn't exist as well

Distant Twilight

2010-04-19T22:07:00.003+07:00

The rainbow has lose it's colors
I've come this far to find the lost light
Nothing scares me than this fear

The cold body is moving in the heat of the night
Stars are sparkling but it's hard to see the path
The rotation of this universe is always the same

Prayer of eternity in the realm of darkness
Forbidden memories in ancient times
Why we always try to defy our fate?

Please return this world to its original form
Where the kindness and unity living together
Eternal life is our wish in this wonderland

Taking the pain by the same history
Overjoyed with those excitement
Imagine ourselves in the heavenly place

Now I'm running towards the sun
Searching for a lost paradise in this universe
Why time always took everything I had?

Beloved Memories

2010-03-04T18:11:00.006+07:00

How deep is our thoughts
When it comes to terrifying past?
You teach me something important
Through my fear, despair, and hatred

I want to talk about you a lot
Even though I don't know how
Your message is engraved within my heart
Because you taught me
How important my existence is

If this is the beginning of everything
How should I start? What should I do?
You taught me, my existence doesn't last forever
Were I able to go over the clouds peacefully?

Even if you say goodbye and suddenly disappears
You'll always be in my heart
I know I'm not alone anymore
Why I was born... How I want to live...
Thanks for your guidance within me

You always do what you set your heart on
I think it's not an easy thing to do
I want to follow you in that way

I just don't understand
What I should do when I felt so lonely
I believe I will find the answer for ourselves
Because I know I have to say goodbye someday

NOTE:
Okay, for this one it seems very different from my usual works, because for this post, I inspired by one of the famous game in PSX, which is Final Fantasy IX. If you know it, you will find a lot of of the quotes in this post. Anyway, even though this one seems different, I have to say that this is not bad, since the quotes from the games are so many. Thank You~

Silhouette

2010-03-03T02:06:00.002+07:00

"Why do we fight in our lives?"
Pieces of my heart began to aches
The red curtain falls violently

I walk silently in the shadow
The shining stars is my only guide
Could I reach the destined path?

High up on the moon
The other side of myself is crying
The voices of wind are weaving

The truth will always covered with a deep mist
I'm searching for it, and lost in it, then trapped within it
Does we have any other way to choose?
I'm still living for tomorrow and reveal that kind of truth

"Why do we fight in our lives?"
Open your heart and open your eyes
As wide as the sea and the sky

The sparkling love will grow
Enlighten your mind by your side

Message

2010-02-03T23:14:00.000+07:00

It's been a year since I know you
You were so clumsy yet funny
I was an innocent person back then

I tried to tracing the old footprints
The path we have chosen seems different
We keep running as if never tired
I wonder why?

Now I realized that we're completely lost
We were raised with those feelings
No hope yet No despair
Clear like the boundless sky

When I'm gone somewhere
I hope you will searching for me
Even if you're lost in the eternal paradise
Where we will reunite together again

When I arrived at my home
There was a brown scarf in front of my door
Instead of you who should give that present to me

The Happy Birthday message from the scarf
Will always bring the warm feeling to me
Even if I couldn't meet you that night
I feel like you are very close to me

Since that day I have changed
Now I understand the meaning of your kindness
Every time I remember the brown scarf
My tears would dropped once again

When I'm gone somewhere
I hope you will find me
Even if you're trapped in the reality
Where our memories will live forever

Melancholy Of Winter

2010-01-26T23:01:00.000+07:00

The falling snow of this night is very beautiful
White colors over the orange lights under the cobalt sky
My heart is as cold as that night today
Neither hope nor despair comes to me

You said to me, "I'm proud of you"
But you never care what I feel
And you never understand what I want

Sometimes I wish upon that shooting star
I don't want tomorrow comes so early
Why the future is never listened to me,
And the past always dictating me?

I want to see the scenery of this night once again
When it comes to me, surely I will cry again
Does it okay if I keep shedding my tears like this?

I will never listen to the past anymore like the future does
Because of this present, I will keep living in a good path
When the season changes, you will find the answer
The falling petal of that season would surely greet us

My Mind

2010-01-23T01:13:00.000+07:00

I can't describe this feeling for a long time
The only thing that I would understand is
I'm sure that we're connected in different place
I secretly wish for your existence long time ago

I don't know where to find the pieces of a puzzle
We come along this journey so far
In the end, we start questioning ourselves
I don't want it to happen anymore

Do you ever realized that the world
Spinning in an interesting direction?
The proof is we could see different scenery everyday

The blue stars around the red moon tonight is beautiful
As if you could see fire and ice in the vast night sky
Don't you think that our life is as colorful as it is?
It's hard to say what I feel right now

I want to shout my feeling out loud but I can't
Did you feel the same way as I am?
We're probably connected through a secret line
Hidden deep in your mind and my heart

Don't you think that this is an interesting life?
We can move on and start over if you want
And we could see different scenery everyday

Love My Wish

2010-01-15T01:29:00.003+07:00

I'm willing to throw anything in my heart
To the sea where my feelings are drowned

Escaping frantically in the night
I feel the big wind towards me
Reaching the destination safely is not like me

"Why would I keep chasing on that star?"
I have nothing to say right now
What I really need is to keep this feeling
Because it will remain as my wish

I'm not going to run away forever
To the valley where my despair are lost
I won't wasting my time for anything I do

"Does it necessary to say the things I hate?"
I refrain myself for saying it again
Through the pain I used to feel
I could endure a little bit more

Now the thing that left inside me
Would change someday with a dream inside
I will embrace this moments
As long as I have the strong will
Bright and warm...

Complicated Thoughts

2010-01-02T13:33:00.004+07:00

It's just a moment in the night
You won't hear any scream
It's just quiet and calm night
Even that quiet, moonlight shines brightly

And someone calls you, talk to you
And each words flowing out
And become your memories

As the time goes by
Which bring you closer to the end of days
Your heart starts to hope and make a promise
It looks like you don't know what you feel
But it is warm as if your heart wants to embrace something

Hope, what a good words
Will bring us into the dream
Even it is so far away
Even I can't see it

You were saved in this hope
But hope that is seen is not hope
Why does one still hope for what it sees?

But if we hope for what we don't see
We can eagerly wait for it

New Duty, New Responsibility

2010-01-01T20:44:00.001+07:00

It's been a while since I post my latest works, Bittersweet and now it's already 2010.

My dreams to write at least 50 titles before 2010 are fulfilled, but yeah, month after month, not that much I posted here. Well, from the first month this blog is created, so many titles there,but in December, it's just 4 titles.

Actually, I don't know why, seems like very hard to gaining any inspiration at the end of the year.

Anyway, I forgot to post in 3 memorable moment for me : My Birthday, Christmas, and New Year.
I already make something for those 3 moments, but I haven't find the good time for posting it here, and so many works I didn't post here yet, just wait if you like to see.

To put it simply, the title says everything in this year, I always thought that New Year is also a New Duty and a New Responsibility, so I start the blog with this title.

Nothing more to say, my introduction words are always messed up, I couldn't say this message properly, sorry. Please looking forward to the next titles and so on.

Happy New Year 2010!

Bittersweet

2009-12-10T01:02:00.001+07:00

The future has draw near to me
An image of solitary soul were released
Could they draw the picture of happiness?

"Can you see the pattern of the clouds?"
You seem knows a lot
About the things that I don't know yet
I couldn't feel your tenderness
Even though you always pretend to be happy

The white canvas has just only one color until now
I wonder if you will paint your wish...

The past has went away from myself
Though I feel that I am being chased by them
Will I able to survive from this haunting fear?

The morning come earlier than usual
It's unpredictable but I have no choice
I remember that you always ask me the same question
"Why?" and "How?" suits you very much
Somehow it makes me very happy or hurts me so much

The door that leads to your wish is still tightly shut
No one could tell the reasons because you were...

I realized that now I've been surrounded by countless questions
Seeing many hopeless predictions didn't amuse me at all
But why I have to suffer this feeling? Is this Love?
I hear a voice "It was..."

I thought of you.

2009-12-09T00:10:00.001+07:00

I couldn't write this letter properly
The words flowing out as my hand write
As you can see, my fingers are trembling
It's not because today was so cold
Probably my heart racing because of you

How can I get along with you?
Through the heat of the day
And the mist of the night
Carrying a hope that won't fade away

Someday, I'll be at your place
I could stop in your station
But the most important things is
Your will towards me

I couldn't give you anything that
Could seen with your eyes but
I could give you something that
Couldn't see it with your eyes

Perhaps you could see it or
Even feel it with your heart...

Since I met you,
I've never wish for your happiness
I'm happy when I'm with you
Even just without words

So, please don't ask any question anymore
You know my answer very well
That's the truth

Walk This Way

2009-12-06T23:03:00.000+07:00

The dazzling sun seems brighter than usual
I can feel the voice of nature calling me
No matter how I go to another direction
The voice will guide me to the next destination

The footsteps that I made leaving my past behind
The falling leaves as the wind blows is a sign for me
Everything I do, wouldn't always smooth as you can see
I continue to walk on this endless winding road

Did you remember?
When the stars isn't sparkling
I might be crying and she will lost her feeling

As deep as the ocean, As blue as the ocean
The blue sky always able to see
Close your eyes and you will understand

Didn't you remember?
When the stars are shining
She is crying for something inside me

Daybreak hasn't come yet,
Moonlight hasn't appear yet,
But why my memories are fading?

Why I can't remember anything?
Though I just want to recalling
Before the world stops spinning
I want to be stronger without crying

Way

2009-12-03T01:05:00.001+07:00

After dropped my last tears at the moment
I decided, I won't crying anymore
Though these days are irritating
It's not the main reason I'm crying

The curtain that hides my true self
Is now opened without any sign
I can feel the warming light now
My translucent heart is shining brightly

I hope I can change every drops of tears
Become a sparkles precious jewel
I will show it to you someday

Maybe everyone has their own illusion
That's why mistakes sometimes occurred
After all we're just an imperfect creature

There is no more smile if i keep standing here
I decided, i have to go even if I'm alone
Though my destination is still unclear

The vibrant future is calling me
Now I have to go without holding back anymore
Just for now I don't want to look back and I want to ask
"Does this voice reach you?"

Keep On

2009-11-22T23:01:00.001+07:00

"I thought that the things that I want to keep
Isn't a precious things"
I refrain myself and keep saying it repeatedly
"I am myself is a precious things
That someone would keep"
Sometimes we forgot,
How important our existence for this world

We were born to live
To live in these kind of days
Days when lie isn't a serious matter
That's why it's hard to trust anyone else

Life is never smooth like a silk
There are a lot of pattern of smiles and tears
Anything is possible even we have to tear it

What can I do to save it?
I'm tired of these days of meaningless fun
I hope I could become a shooting star
Just across the sky and then disappear

"Remember the day when we're forgotten"
I will keep saying this until I understand
I don't know if I should leave this lonely world behind

I want to become your shadow
I will follow you wherever you go
Nowhere to run, Nowhere to go
But my life wouldn't end like a shadow or a shooting star

Please trust me with all your might
Then we will continue to walk on this silky road

So Many Times

2009-11-22T00:16:00.000+07:00

So many times,
I've been recalling about you
Though you haven't changed at all

I guess the warm atmosphere has changed
There is no more sweet conversation
I could see a bitter smile and tasteless sensation

We're not going on the same way
But why we meet again in the same destination?
It's not necessary to change the direction now

So many times,
I've been stumbled up because of you
Though it can't be helped

I thought you were enjoy your days very well
There are so many reason to prove it
I began to understand why

They said that you have changed
But why you keep repeating the same mistakes?
It's your nature to build the bonds

So many times,
I've been confused by your acts
Though you always pretending to be calm

Will you come back after a long trip?
Will you return to these days?
I never wish that kind of hope
But i keep asking the same question

Starry Sky

2009-11-14T00:46:00.001+07:00

It was so sudden
Everything is passed away
Just like the wind blows

When the night comes
I gaze to the sky
I could see a lot of stars

But it was so sad
The star sparkles
Has lost it's lights
One by one until dark

I wish a better future for us
Whether it's hard or it's hurt
Truth must be revealed
In order to save everyone

Destiny awaits you
Until the end of time
We will know the history
That's always inevitable

Sometimes i don't believe coincidence
But until i understand what tears are for
The starry nights will always waiting for us
Until that day... Someday...

Memories Of That Day

2009-11-12T00:24:00.000+07:00

The night was so dark
The rain was too heavy
I can't even see the stars that night

I wish i won't meet this pain anymore
Because things are going so fast recently
There are too many conclusions and reasons

What would you think about me now?
What would i think about you now?
You see, i don't want to escape from this one

I don't want to cry
Because i have to end the disguise soon
I keep up all of your feelings without tears
You keep up all of your feelings without smile

I don't know if my heart is already ruined
You don't know if your heart is already healed
I always trying to smile pretending to be okay
Even the fact isn't always like that

I think i find someone who was treats and serves me better
I want to said that i'm happy with that
But if i didn't end the disguise soon
I'm just remake another disguises after all

Now, i'm realized that everything is going to be alright
If i'm not sacrifices something to get other along well
Things are go better and everything can get along well

I want to cry
Because i've already end the disguise
I keep up all of your feelings with smile
You keep up all of your feelings without tears

Can Be Real

2009-11-11T00:18:00.001+07:00

Someday, i will face the future by myself
The things that will remain in the past
Maybe it is just a regret

Tomorrow has it's own speed
That no one can defeat
If you want to challenge it
Then go ahead, no one will stop you

Time isn't something that you can compete with
But it is your partner that will accompany
It's faithful until you face eternity

Everything, Everybody, Everyone
Will meet their ends someday
One things that will never wither
Is only unforgotten history

Maybe you always think like this
When you feel alone, time passes slowly
The other way, time goes so fast

Everybody has their own standards
But doesn't easy come and easy go
Maybe it's inevitable

If everything in this world decided by someone
Will you follow it or not?
If everything in this world isn't connected one by one
Will you accept it or not?
If everything in this world doesn't have their ends
What will you do?

Imperfection

2009-11-06T22:38:00.001+07:00

"Evanescent..." what a sad words
Accepting regrets is not like yourself
The messages murmuring softly
As if it breaks the silence

Being trapped in chains of confusion
Carrying the burden of truth
Imprisoned in shadow of yourself
Are you in pain or feel the deep sorrow?

Tortured by reality is quite unusual for you
Can you see this darker sky?
Perhaps this is the fate that you should accept

"Everlasting..." what a selfish wish
Because of your will we keep standing in this path
The voices heaves softly
Certainly it rings my heartbeat

Being chased by your scary illusion
Darkness suddenly appear in your heart
Despair lies deep within your mind
Are you running away from your fear?

Engulfed by your own emotion and words
Can you realize what's happening on you?

Dream Trip

2009-10-31T21:46:00.001+07:00

Dark room, Pillow train, Lullaby song
Get ready for a dream trip over the night
We'll departing soon no matter how you resist
Take me away, Let me fly away

Somewhere in this world,
Where the destination lies ahead
The place where Hope and Imagination painting
The image of uncertain future

We'll arrive soon but
We differs from the real world
If only you remember...

Family, Friends, Lovers
Appears in the same place at the same time
What's on your mind?

On my way, On the way, By the way
Who created these illusion anyway?
Take me away, Let me fly away

Something in this world
That cannot be seen by physical eyes
Something that your heart would see,
And make your mind thinking about it so often

We'll get it soon
But we have to chase it
No matter how

Identity and Personality
Differs unexpectedly so many times at the same time
What's on your mind?

Dark room, Pillow train, Lullaby song
Get ready for arrival in the next station
We'll arrive soon but we differs from the real world
Please remember...

Dead End

2009-10-31T11:25:00.000+07:00

Take me to the place where the sun is dark
The place where i can't hear anything
Nobody knows and nobody cares

I feel that i have lost everything to tears
I couldn't smile as natural as always
Little efforts even that breath-taking

I'm appears as if i'm disappears
I'm here in this place without no one realize
Just leave me alone in the corner of this world

Simply talking without believing are worthless
I found myself frozen against those sharp words
If you think that i'm the worst,
I feel that i'm even worse than you imagine

It's over already
I will accept it as a lesson
Tears does not end as a sin
Someday i'll be better

Now, i just want to cry
As much as the rain falls
Leave me alone and don't ever call me
Let me cry among the stars

I really want to tell you something
But it's over already and it's the end
The story has finally come to an end

Good-bye,
I believe we will meet again
In another chance

Burden of Truth

2009-10-26T23:45:00.000+07:00

For those who are keep struggling
From the insanity of these days
You will find the appropriate answer sooner

When you lose the feeling of kindness
The world seems turning into black & white
We're longing for something that we want to embrace

Losing my feeling,
Falling into the dream,
Is it me who escape from the reality?

"Are you expecting something unchanging?"
Probably, the future has the answer
In order to save myself from these illusion
I won't stray on this path by myself

At the moments where my tears calling out your name
The colors of the sky are fading into black
I couldn't see my reflection in the mirror
Am i losing my identity?

Baseless predictions,
Hopeless expressions,
Is that the sign of despair for me?

There's nothing called truth if i keep on escaping
Reality is something we should chase
Even it's run away from us
That's why it never ends...

Close Up

2009-10-24T23:07:00.001+07:00

Accepting the things that we hate
Is one of the hardest part in this life
We're living in this present time
To endure the things that we hate
Could you imagine that?

We are the products of the past behind us
But at the same time,
We are the projects of the future in front of us
That's why we have both,
The good things and the bad things

Learning from yesterday
To avoid any mistake for tomorrow
Isn't that a simple things?

Regret is for the past
Effort is for the present
Dream is for the future
They are connected in a simple form called Life

Let's get better everyday
If today you can't make it better
Let's make it tomorrow

Regrets in the past will bring us to efforts in the present
And it will make us dream about tomorrow
Yeah, big things starts from small things
Could you believe in such simple beings?

Do As I Say / Not As I Do

2009-10-23T12:10:00.000+07:00

As for now, i want to write about 2 things, so i made 2 things in 1 post~

Do As I Say

There are things which can't be done with words
But it doesn't mean the words are useless
Sometimes we have to act without words
That's how we continue living along

At times when you confused with your duty
You complain about everything and doing nothing
I know sometimes we feel really tiring
But we can't just standing and being lazy

If you lost your spirit for now
Let's scream loudly to the boundless sky
You can do it, You can carry on

When people around you were so irritating
Try humming your favorite song and keep smiling
Every person in this world actually very nice
They only need some time to realize their mistake

If you ever feel that you are the worst
There is someone out there might be worse
than you
But we always have a chance to be better
That's why we shouldn't trapped by others words

If you didn't have any confidence for now
Look at the mirror that shows true image of yourself
You can carry on, You can do it

Even the times when you are alone comes suddenly
Look at the sky and see the sun still shine for you
Look at the ground and see the shadow still follow you
Nobody could stop your step now, isn't it?

Not As I Do

I don't have an eye to teach you
I just want to share what i feel with you
If we could walk this way together smoothly
Isn't that a nice things to do?

There are things that we could never understand
A lot of things we could never understand by ourselves
Sometimes we know the answer when we listen to others

Betrayed by people,
Mistaken with someone else,
Forgotten by others,
When these moments occurs the world seems crashing down

It's not that I want to remember these moments but
I want to forget it sooner but it won't fade in my memories
Maybe this is the scar that you share with me

Extra-ordinary person doesn't always shine in the bright place
Nevertheless people never see the other side
The best things that i could done is keep silence

I am grateful for all the kindness
Since i have a chance to know you more
Somehow i feel nostalgic about this moments
The day when i accept the reality has repeating

Memories i've embraced,
Tragedies i've called,
Reflections i've accepted,
When these moments comes this world seems rebirth once again

I don't care if i should leave this lonely world behind
I want to do the best things that i could do this way
Until your eyes opened

Inside The Silence

2009-10-23T01:38:00.001+07:00

I'm the one who always forgotten
It's not about care with each other
Kindness and Tenderness doesn't suits me
All i have to do is just keep strong alone

I remember the day that i want to forget
It was such a pain that your name didn't mentioned
Do they appear as an illusion?
I would wish it was all a lie

Words are passing by
But nothing caught my attention
A lot of sensation has spread out
But nothing to do with me there

Does everyone think that i'm powerless?
Someday i'll proof it to the people
Forgotten things are the nicest thing to remember

Loneliness has teach me a new strength and will
To surpass everything ordinary as people think
As long as i become stronger with this feelings
I will continue to survive in this narrow cruel road
With or without you

Shimmering Will

2009-10-16T12:18:00.001+07:00

Long, long time ago
I was standing in this place
Waiting for something
That will never come

Sleeping in front of the sunset
Sitting in front of the sunshine
If we enjoying beautiful things so much
Sooner or later it will be nothing

Everything are passed away with the rising sun
Cool things aren't important anymore
If i were the sun from today
I will start to shine without taking breath

After all we're just human
Who wants to save ourselves first
Sometimes person by person never realized
That everything they will do may save others

All the scenery we have seen now
Maybe won't come back again
Every chance that coming to us
It looks like a shooting star

Every people has their own wish
But not every people has their wish granted
If a wish is just willing for something
How do people survive to declare it?

Holding My Thoughts In My Heart

2009-10-15T01:00:00.003+07:00

You asked me, "Do you believe me?"
Even though you know my answer very well
I don't need anything as for now
I just want to believe

Am i depending on you too much?
We're getting closer day by day
Without even noticing that
Distance between us are shorter than before

The atmosphere are getting warmer
Your words shine brightly on me
Vanishing my fear against anything

Our feelings won't fade if we keep going
The bad memories quickly faded as the time goes by
We will running endlessly and won't stop
It doesn't scared me at all

I never understand what is happiness
But i learned something about it
When we're not alone surely we can feel it
It's hard to describe it well

When i'm without you the time runs slowly
As if i don't know what i should do
Am i trusting on you too much?

The most important things is today with you
It's hard if i should let you go but
Whatever will happens i have to be ready
Believing something is also preparing for unexpected things

Even so, why?
But that's it...
That's the way life is...

Destiny Lovers

2009-10-12T22:18:00.001+07:00

I took a new direction where the ray left off
I lost myself and falling inside the labyrinth
Nowhere to go and it's too dark to see

I keep walking even without destination
Nobody understand what i'm aiming for
Maybe that is the way i'm expressing my confusion

This is not about a childish fairy tale
When everything starts from sorrow and sadness
To the happy ending without suffering anything
Stop talking about imagination and back to the present

I need to keep silent without words flowing around
Nobody understand this eternal moment in this time
Don't act like you know me very well because it's useless

Neither this feelings nor that mind
Suddenly making a conclusion without even thinking
Could your heart and your mind runs harmonically?
Surely after that we could make a big decision

I never know that someone know me very well
But please stop talking about me as if you know me
It was a big mistake for mistaken me with someone else

If you think that your words are your strength
Soon you will lose unconsciously without facing anything
My only wish for now, i want to say it
I believe someone will call my name

You could let your tears flooding your face
I want you to share it with me, but... Why?

Limited Time

2009-10-09T00:11:00.001+07:00

When you show your smiling face
It's so tender and sometimes warm me up
It looks like a history
That cannot be erased anymore

Feeling so depressed and confused
Make people around asking "Why?"
So many questions appear

Sometimes people asking others
Without care of themselves
I don't know it's a promise or not
But, just don't answer it

We're just a small existence
That cannot be erased easily
Please don't tell me that
This is the reason for your answer

Although the smallest things in this world
Are not the important things for this world
We are not the same

Sometimes i wonder
What is your thoughts if
Your existence will be erased?
From this world, of course...

Make It Better

2009-10-05T00:53:00.001+07:00

If you can't have what you want
Start wanting what you have got
It's not whether you win or lose
It's how you play the game

Life is a choice no matter how you think of it
Do you want to face it and enjoy it?
Or you don't want to face anything or enjoy anything?
Make your opportunity and go forward

You are doing the things that you like
You are doing the things that you want
It is natural and normal
But sometimes forgotten

If we could survive in problems
We will always achieve something
If there's no problems so there's no achievement

After all is said and done
A lot more will have been said than done
It is natural and normal
But sometimes forgotten

Anxious Heart

2009-10-05T00:43:00.001+07:00

Until today i don't understand
Why you have to do that things?
I have been so confused because of your answer
If i could understand your feeling
Maybe i don't pretending to be ok right now

There is a time when i really really hate you so much
And even i have already bored to see you
Even more i heard everything about you
Even more again i still remember your bad habits
All of them really make me feel uneasy

But i don't know why that feeling slowly faded
Little by little everything changed
Become a memorable past

If i really leave you that time
Maybe i can't forgive myself now
Because now i try to recall memories with you once again
And it was breaking this hate feeling

When i hate you all that i can do is only stay away from you
And i was hoping you will be happy someday anywhere
But now i only remember you once again
The more i try to remember the more i'll be healed from the past

I wish everything will return back to normal or even better
It's ok if not same as before
The most important things now is gather all the pieces of these feelings
Into a picture of the better future

Though i can't do anything now
Just looking at your smile and reading your messages made me happy
But then i don't understand again
If you and me repeat that moment when the words 'Farewell' spoken out

Drifting Away

2009-10-05T00:37:00.001+07:00

I am asking to myself for sure
"Can i walk through that door to tomorrow?"
Sometimes i don't want to pass a new day
It is too bright, i can't see anything

Living in the present was such a gift
Leaving trace from these roads aren't bad
I walk on without my chin up
Heading for another places that i don't know

Since when that i'm so forgotten?
I really don't care about it all very much
But people sometimes are really annoying

If my wish were granted
I don't want to face the future anymore
I believe there's no painful again

As shadows follows light
The darkness cannot be destroyed
After all, as far as i go
Despair and Hope keeps following me

If we judge anything easily with own two eyes
Without thinking others deeply
Someday we will leave a scar
With an embarrassing pain

Everything that started with anger
Will ended with shameless feeling

I regretting myself for judging easily
Now I know that tomorrow should come
In order to save everyone
In order to changes everything

If i ever think that something very annoying
That's not because others
It's because of myself that never understand
What these words are for...

The World We Live In

2009-09-30T16:21:00.001+07:00

What happens with this era?
All the things visible cannot be expected
Everything that will happen can not be ascertained
The world and life is filled with doubt

Every person have the courage to say "Yes" to every choice
Without knowing what will happen later
Attitude that is needed today to deal with life
Which one would you choose, feelings or desires?

Anything that will appear tomorrow will not change today
But what happened today will change tomorrow
Life is not as simple as we think
What is there today are not necessarily there in time to come

In this era, every word spoken is uncertain
What they say is not the same as what people think
Fear is natural when we are all aware
Even it can change the truth into a lie

Because the words is ourselves
No matter how you say it
We are the words itself
Whatever lies beyond your mouth

What happens at this age?
The world and life is filled with doubt
But we are not alone if we want to choose
If you feel scared and do not have certainty
Let's finish it together

Tears of The Moon

2009-09-30T00:39:00.001+07:00

Under the moonlight night sky
So many things that I can feel in this present moment
Many things can not be expressed in words
But I have choose the road which I think is right

I think that the road had I traveled so far
Giving me a valuable lesson even that made me fall
Therefore I can't take a bigger steps
Although finally I can breathe calmly again

Maybe the winds blow harder than usual
But the heat of the sun will still be the same as usual
If you feel there is a sad thing
I'm here to feel what you feel

I wasn't sad anymore but why these tears keep falling
I'm still asleep, although overshadowed by feelings of guilt
I even still could see you even if you're not there
No one knows but only myself knows that very well

The scar in this heart will change someday
Turned into a warmth that can I give
To anyone who would do anything for a smile
That's why I regard it as the most valuable thing

Missing You

2009-09-28T16:29:00.001+07:00

Maybe i made up this decision
Because there were no other choice
I even thought that this isn't from my heart
That day seems memorable

If we remember far to yesterday
I won't forget the moments
When we met and laughing together
But then, our tears rolled suddenly

I see your picture hanging in my room
But you're not the same anymore
The pieces of my heart are missing something

Even in the day when i said goodbye too you
I still thought of you very well
The sky was beautiful back then

As blue as the ocean
That was my feeling toward it
I wanted to say thank you but
It seems so bittersweet to think about it

Maybe i was too pushy to think about this decision
But with the strength inside me
I will keep this as a promise and not as a regret
Even though i'm feeling so

Could we cry as much as we want for now?
However these flattering days are passed
Our memories will grow deep in our hearts
As long as we remember

I want to believe and raise our chins up today
No matter how the seasons change
Are you ready?

Since Then

2009-09-26T15:05:00.001+07:00

If i remember far away there
Anyone might pursuing their dream
Someone might leaving their decision
I have decided to keep moving forward

The seasons where fireworks appears
Finally come to an end
Strong wind blows against me
The leaves are fall behind me

I sometimes wonder
How could i walk this far?
When i'm thinking about it so deeply
I tried myself moving forward and leaving a footprints

The green leaves finally changes its color
The color of the sun is sinking into the dusk
I won't see the shadow of past memories again
It will fade away as the seasons pass

Strong wind blows against me again
And i keep walking forward
Though it may be a common expression after all
But it seems that you didn't notice that
Some part of me aren't there anymore

If you stumble and doesn't have any courage to face the reality
Please remember how far have you go
And how much time have you spend

You know that the time are belong to us
But it always moving and never going back,
Don't you know that?

Take Me Away

2009-09-25T01:26:00.001+07:00

Maybe this heart screamed for loneliness
It was wounded because of the meaningless pleasure
Spring winds could not keep me warm against it
I'm just waiting for this ice to melt

Passing the same road everyday
Meet the same scenery everyday
How long you will continue to go through this all?

You remember this place very well, don't you?
Because you know how to pass this way
You suddenly become brave because you understand it all
Fear comes suddenly if you didn't know anything

How should i put it?
Maybe it's uncomfortable to stay in your heart
Your heart is not a place where i should stop my step

I have lost my fear since i believe in myself
You don't need me and i want to forget about you
I think that's fair enough for you and me
Then, we doesn't need any reason anymore, are you ready?

Piece of Hope

2009-09-20T22:58:00.001+07:00

I want to love and to be loved
These piece of feeling are already scattered
Something that remains is only the pain

Tasteless conversation is hurts
Flavorless talk is hurts
But i can't say with own words
Unable to put these feelings into words

To forget and to be forgotten
Are such meaningless things
Run away and fleeing are also meaningless
The more pain we get, we will be stronger

Sometimes, we scared about something
That we have already know
And don't want to face it
But, we should be prepared

What for we cry?
What for we laugh?
What for we sad?
What for we happy?

When you think that
These feelings is not important anymore
You should know that
You are not alone

You can draw a sweet things
With pain and scar you had
So, let's do not judge something
That we really don't understand about

Skyline

2009-09-17T23:45:00.001+07:00

Sometimes i wonder
If the rainbow lose all colors
Will people still call it rainbow?

However if the sky looks so bright
We couldn't see the sun clearly
Sometimes we cannot see bright things ahead
Time will explain to us how to see it

Because of the sky looks so cloudy
We couldn't see the sun clearly
Meaningful things sometimes hiding somewhere
In the place that we should know already

Sometimes i wonder
If the sun lose its lights
Will people still call it sun?

Because of this rain
We can't see the sky clearly
Be prepared for everything about anything
Because things are easily changing without any sign

Because of the rain before
We can see a beautiful rainbow in the sky
Patience is always better than pride
That's the basic to achieve wonderful things

Sometimes i wonder
If the sky are empty
Will people still want to look above?

Just The Way I Am

2009-09-14T15:51:00.001+07:00

Seeing everyone under the same sky
Taking the same pain and
Passing the same rain every time
Giving me strength to keep standing

If this world were split into
Two groups of weak persons and strong persons
I'd rather be in the weak person groups
I always want to be a weak person

Without this kind of pain that i take
I won't be myself like today
Voyage is learning and taking the pain
Time will heal if you could use it wisely

Without this scar that i have now
I won't be myself like you know
Togetherness was saved me from the past
I realized that i'm not alone

Any precious things that we bring
Will always accompanied by the pain
Even if you're as strong as the mountain
Small things may crush you from inside

Every choice in this life
I'll choose it with confidence
So, it is i am of myself

Let's go together to fight cruelty of reality

Sincerely

2009-09-12T22:30:00.001+07:00

I've heard too much words for now
It's not about the past or the future
It's just because you don't understand
The real meaning behind of this

When hope meets wish at the same time
I'm pretty sure that it will be granted
No matter how it will be taken
At least we just trying to believe

To love is to trust
But sometimes both of them can't get along well
It's just a line that crossed over the border

When i hear the words about nonsense
Talking so steadily as if knows everything
It's just plain useless to reply it
What i don't need for now is just words

Anyone would notice if we acts different suddenly
But just some of them wants to correct that
Is regret always come with reaction?
I don't have a time to remember that kind of things

To answer is to choose
We need a clear explanation for each questions
Even if it doesn't have any answer at all

Could we make people forget about us?
That's an appropriate questions for now
Would you like to forget about me today?
That was a perfect question at the moment

Way of Life

2009-09-11T02:35:00.001+07:00

People always hard to accept
What they had to lose
Minds seems to be okay
But, hearts said different

Things are lost one by one
Through the matter of course
The only they could do is only
Accept without any regrets

So many mistake in this life
Who could be we should blame of?
Look into yourself, please do so

Nothing have to worry about
The freedom door is just as far as we hope
Happiness isn't something we must rely of
Everything could have been better

There are so many things we should think of
Nevertheless, so that important things are chasing by
People should know that worst things is only
When they are give up and meets despair

Accepting these things in life is
Something what people must do and cannot be deceived
Because, truth are never ends

Childish

2009-09-10T22:46:00.001+07:00

Happy feelings is just like a blooming flower,
When the daybreak comes it blooms beautifully,
When the dusk comes the petals are dropped

Yes, we lives in these days
You and i have seen the sunshine together
We have enjoyed the sunset together

How long you will proud of yourself?
Until when you are going to show yourself?
Didn't you tell me about beautiful flower?

You are free to do anything you want to do
Without limit, everyone can fly high to the endless sky
But, you can't reach that limit without knowing everything

Stand back and fight yourself
Without fear, for the sake of yourself
I said, "You have just to go forward"

If you ever think that someday
You will be a ruler, just go to dreamland
Everything much better there
But remember, fadeless things are sometimes scary

Back then, you have realized
When the petals are gone with the wind
There is no chance to return back

Regrets are always late,
That's why people can stand up and change
Today's star could be tomorrow nobody

Long Reach

2009-09-09T17:00:00.001+07:00

At first we meet
You gave me such an innocent smile
Without telling anything

What i've done?
I even didn't say anything to you
I let you go without "Good-bye" or even "Thank You"

If you were the one i've always dreamed of
I will always searching for you
I will keep every part of you

The distance between us aren't that far
You can see me and i can see you
Could we start over this moment?

What i've seen?
I'm watching for you from afar
Maybe you didn't realize that
But i can't get near you

When you're there
Courage seems running away
As if i'm scared of your existence

I want to find you wherever you may be
But, you always know how to protect yourself
Against all of these unknown things around you

The more you try to defend yourself
The more i'll searching for you
Until i could smile for you

It Depends

2009-09-08T18:06:00.001+07:00

Someday, i will face the future by myself
The things that will remain in the past
Maybe it is just a regret

Tomorrow has it's own speed
That no one can defeat
If you want to challenge it
Then go ahead, no one will stop you

Time isn't something that you can compete with
But it is your partner that will accompany
It's faithful until you face eternity

Everything Everybody Everyone
Will meet their ends someday
One things that will never wither
Is only unforgotten history

Maybe you always think like this
When you feel alone, time passes slowly
The other way, time goes so fast

Everybody has their own standards
But doesn't easy come and easy go
Maybe it's inevitable

If everything in this world decided by someone
Will you follow it or not?
If everything in this world isn't connected one by one
Will you accept it or not?
If everything in this world doesn't have their ends
What will you do?

Piece of Happiness

2009-09-07T15:08:00.001+07:00

That night i've seen
Starry nights even if it's dark
I have just realize that
There is a star that shines more brightly among all the stars

I remember once again
I want to be like that
Shines in the dark and shines more brightly among all

I remember once again
So many pain that i have to feel
Until i become like now that shines brightly

If i remember once again about me
That time, i crying a lot because it was very sad
I don't understand why i should feel like this

But, until now, i'm still crying
But not because i'm sad but very happy
Even i can't hold it anymore

If tears is not exist in this world
I don't know that i'm happy or not
Because, even if i know that smiles
Is easy to understand with others
I have just realize that tears means something fullfilled

Now, i only can smiles everytime
Seeing something had changing
And i have understand now
There's no regrets, there's only thank you

Blue Sky

2009-09-06T23:55:00.001+07:00

Don't cry, Please don't cry
You are strong, right?
You won't let your tears fall like that, i believe it

I'm looking at the place where the sun appears
Because i don't want to look forward for now
As blue as the sky, that is what i feel right now

Don't you know?
I've been enduring the bitterness of life
Somehow it makes me stronger than before
But my heart isn't that wide as the sky

Would someone enlighten me like the sun?
I cannot always hiding behind the clouds
Am i right?

Don't give up, Please don't give up
You are strong right?
You still have many chances, i believe that

I wish i could fly to the places where the rainbow appears
Whatever it takes, i need to try it rather than just to watch it
As long as i believe in my will, surely...

Don't you believe?
I'll never understand why
People doesn't need any reasons to helping others
Sometimes, it feels so warm if i remember that

Will everyone go to the place beyond the sky?
I thought no one would give different answer
Am i wrong?

Let's welcome this journey
In order to save yourself
Along with the sunshine

Take It Easy

2009-09-06T00:36:00.001+07:00

I walk thousand miles from home
And searching for something valuable
I don't know where i am going
At least i know how to survive

I never imagine i will come into this journey
I look at the blue sky sometimes
Wishing that somebody will help me together

No one knows how far i go
In the end, it's just myself
Who pretending to be strong and careful
As if a hero has save the city

Beyond that way, there's no sign of turning back
Sometimes we should go through the limit
And feeling tired and hurts for a moment
We won't see dead end if we try to take the pain

I will keep moving forward
Until tears of sadness wither from my eyes

Today, i've learn something wonderful
The pain isn't that hurt as usual
Maybe somebody has placed an armor
So that i've became stronger

My Own World

2009-09-05T14:33:00.001+07:00

As far as we seek the freedom
The more we'll be so tired
Chasing one after another
Steadily we come to an end

There are times when we can't understand others
Whenever it may be happen in this life
This heart will searching for loneliness

When you see the difference
Between you and the others
You may seem so powerless
Because you don't know everything

If you force your will again and again
Soon you will be distinguished
Like a flames in the gust of wind

We're all not the same
Even though we face similarity in many other ways
Desperation and Revelation might calls you
But Expectation won't come that easily

How many times we rejected?
Even though it won't always happen
What does it takes to enter other minds?
Everyone has their own world

Is everyone experiencing the same feeling?
Until the time meets an end someday
Should we need to make everything is the same?
So many uncomparable world in this world

Return To You

2009-09-05T02:00:00.001+07:00

There will be a times, when you felt so lonely
Even yourself don't understand that kind of moment
What you want to do is just escape from reality

You thought that if you got what do you want,
You seem fulfilled and satisfied
But the fact was,
You are still searching what do you want to keep

We're just human my dear
We're just nothing if we're alone
Do you think you can find the happiness
If wandering alone?

I'm running away towards the sun
I want to believe that someday
I could find where the prosperity is

I wish i could forgive myself
I want to follow my own destiny
I want to forget that i ever sank in despair

When confident and happiness appear
Surely, we will shine
Shine like the dazzling sun

Desperation

2009-09-04T01:25:00.001+07:00

I'm just a small existence carrying a burden named fear
I'm always thinking that i'm important to others
Despite the fact aren't that sure for me to believe

The more i try to believe,
The more my tears have fall,
I'm just trapped in my loneliness masked by happiness

My heart is already crying hopelessly
Without any signs to stopped someday
But my minds still hoping that someday,
Every tears i dropped would become a precious jewel

I want to see you again someday
Carrying a promise that wouldn't fulfilled easily
Because when that day come,
Maybe we're not the same anymore

It's not what i want
It's not what i wish
It's what i don't understand
It's something against the fate

Again, i turn to you
Shedding my tears again
And sinking into tomorrow

Words

2009-09-01T22:02:00.001+07:00

I'd try to keep silent
I've already decided
I don't want any words spill out

Human are just forgetful creatures
It's impossible to live without forgetting things
Why does these kinds of creature exist?
I won't blame on anything or anyone

Words aren't easy things to hold

It's something that will binds you
If you try to hesitate to it
Even sometimes words will betray you

Everyone will forgot and regret this
Even it's already happened twice
Do you remember another living beings?
They always keep their promise

History is repeated itself
As if it's rolling around in this dirty world
Time is rule over you
And you can't deny that

Idealistic theory may changed your mind
But it doesn't last forever
And it was start with the words
What is words anyway?

Everything begin from words
And lastly wordly attitude will end
In the way where they choose

Rain Drops

2009-08-31T22:27:00.000+07:00

One day i've dreaming about wonderland
I never imagine that you would be there
You look so happy without realize that i was there

I want to recall that memories
That we spent together in the past
I remember your smile are so tender and gentle

I see you walking back then
You're so happy about it but i can't reach you
I pray that someday maybe this tears will reach you

When i wake up from that nightmare
I burst into tears again
I don't understand why that is really hurt

I'm searching for your picture in my room
Wish that this tears wouldn't be meaningless
I hate this embrassing pain so much

I remember your profile once again
I don't know since when i hate you this much
But deep in my hearts you still have a place

Being selfish and crybaby doesn't break this chains
I'm tired of this moments already
I want to go through this sleepless nights

However how many times i crying before
You will never come back again at once
There's a wish that cannot be granted
The time won't go back although we have pray for a years

I'm here, You're here
That's all, That's everything

*Note: Credits to Hamasaki Ayumi and the song "flower garden" for the last part >,<

If Only

2009-08-31T02:24:00.000+07:00

If only the day when i should leave this place
Come so early and so suddenly
There will be a moment encounter
Feeling so depressed with full of regrets

The cloudy sky today has giving a sign
Decisions made because of the pressure of these feelings
No more words flows out from the living beings
As if the world begins to silence

What is the answer behind this truth?
Should people answer it with another tears?
Even if the wound in this heart has began to ache once again
I dare to say that i'm okay

What is the reason for telling lies?
Even so, that's not the worst thing to remember
Because if we tell too much, the words flows too much
The truth will become blurred

Please, make an excuse for the sake of yourself
Everyone will go to the same place
But not in the same way as they think
That's why, we will surely together someday

Let's make an appropriate life
In exchange of sacrificing something
When the day where hesitation and despair meets
Surely, i will fight against it

With all my strength left inside me
I will turn the sky become blue
If only you understand...

Hate

2009-08-30T13:31:00.000+07:00

Being able to smile for each situation is good
But, it's really tiring if it's fake or doesn't go in that way

Today, in your mind, i can't see a war between hope and disappointment
But your face shows it all and anyone would think the same.

Don't blame on anyone else unless you can proof it all.
At least, you aren't looking so confuse to keep the atmosphere calm

However your heart are foggy, don't close your eyes,
It'll make you get out from the line and losing your self-control

You can't express it with your half-hearted attitude, in the end,
You will fall in regret, and protect yourself from despair

Isn't it useless to bringing so many words to the public place?
Isn't it shameful for you to acts without thinking?

When people around you doesn't match your standards,
You don't have any reason to act freely with your own emotion

Does it hurts you very much until you realize where are you right now?
As long as you know what you do, the present will able to understand you very well

Measure of Life

2009-08-30T01:24:00.000+07:00

What do you want to find in the end of your journey?
What is the thing that you want to keep safely?
When you want to find the answer, listen to the voice of your heart and go along with the beat

In this short stories of life,
How many questions appears at the same time when you have to choose something important for your life?

It could be boring if you just live for yourself, but it wasn't an easy thing to realize it
It might be fun if you always together with your ordinary friends,
But it might be meaningless fun if you just fulfill it for yourself.

It was the reality, wandering around us searching for the truth
Don't you have a definite answer?

Should we measure that distance?
What does it takes to the next moment?

When people keep the pride inside of them,
The more they try to be defensive against usual things

Let's shorten the distance then, with sacrifice
Let's unite together, so that the victory is ours

Lovers

2009-08-29T21:01:00.001+07:00

Hey there lovers,
Hiding your identity just for yourself
Acts like a child or sometimes comical
What does it takes to love someone?

Don't being too nervous
As if it wasn't yourself as well

However far you will be separated
As long you believe and remember
It's really near

You even try to sacrificing yourself up
In order to protect something precious right now
What you need is just confidence

Hey there lovers,
Stupid things are become sweet things
Light wounds are become deep pain
What does it takes to keep up your love?

Moving around so arrogant with pride
As if you are the ruler of the world

Although you have bring your time so steadly
It seems that not enough to satisfy
It's really extravagant

Didn't notice for anything that close to you
Is become your nature right now
What you need is just attention

Hey there lovers,
Joke are not casually happened
But it's necessarily happened
Quarreling will build you up
And forgiveness will protect you up

Eternity

2009-08-29T17:46:00.001+07:00

Every small rotation of this world
Will deliver us to the ends of anything
Slowly, we are facing the eternity
In this flowing of time
That was the reality

When things are begin so fast, the ending will arrives quickly
No one could deny that, even me
It's not possible to make any rules at time like this

We are just a small creatures, that living in the same way
Our existence is like the dots, in the whole time
But the dots will become a big shape, if a lines connected each other

Everything that happens in this world are necessary
It's inevitable and so important
Nothing is useless
That was the true form of this universe

We continue to walk on this path, to the end of the world, leaving so many things behind every small rotation of this world

Forever, to the ends of the world, let's start to make a grateful journey
You and I, let's make another history
Until the day when this universe stops spinning..

In My Room

2009-08-29T15:00:00.001+07:00

Here, in my room
I've been showing so many feelings
That no one else would know
Which direction i'll go afterwards

So many things that i want to give to everyone
This feeling, This pain, This moments, please accept it all as a good memories

At this kind of moment, the words that running around in my mind is only "Thank You"
Even i can't say it out loud, i think anyone could understand the shape of my face

Here, in my room
I've been flooding this place with overflowing tears
I'm not sad or anything but this is the result of each memories

I've been searching the perfect words to express this feeling
But, it's not like me who always telling something with uncertain thoughts

At this kind of moment, the only thing that i could do is just humming the messages
Even i can't do it properly but at least i didn't hurt anyone else

I want to protect that time, so no one can interrupt the story
I want to protect that experience, so you can embrace that moment

If everyone could understand what does it means to take the pain,
They will welcome the pain peacefully, not forcefully

Here, in my room
I understand it all..

Listen To Me

2009-08-29T01:27:00.001+07:00

Again, we come into a day
When words are something that we can rely of
These are the evidence to seek the truth
That already lost in labyrinth of despair

Is it like this?
Is it always the same?
Why do people have words?
Why can't people live as one?

Sometimes, i don't have any courage
Even to trust on anyone else
But i know i was wrong
Because, I've lost my confidence since that day

Do you notice that?
Do you try pretending to be ok all the time?
Who will stand and protect you at a time like that?
When you will feel free?

There will be a day
When you feel that you have lost all your strength
But, even it is going to happen
The Sun still rise and The world keep spinning

No matter how you try to express your hopeless expressions
No one will left you alone in the corner of this world
I'm feeling so...

Introduction

2009-08-29T01:25:00.000+07:00

I'm back~

Yeah, this is another part of myself, you could know myself from here.
Everything that i wrote here, it's not all about me, but you would know me from what i feel, i believe that!

I'm Indonesian, but i'd like to wrote something in English, i want to share my thoughts over the seas, that's waht i want for now.

Nothing more want to say, but please enjoy everything i wrote here, maybe it's a poem, song lyrics, anything~

Thanks in advance!