Somebody to Love

I have come to this place again
The rusty place where you only can see two colors
Sadness crashed down to this place

I sometimes remember
How I love this place
and I sometimes forget
How I hate this life

I always looked cheerfully
without noticing the cries of my heart
Actually I turned my eyes from the reality
and denied the truth

I already said lots of things
But you won't understand
Because I don't even want you to understand
No matter how hard you try
It's just never good enough

Why the smiling face of that person
looks dazzling and so tender?
I feel that the person you always think
is somehow like the person I always think as well

I don't learn how to be strong
I only learn how to pretend to be strong
No one knows about the real me
Even myself

What can be done? My efforts are useless
You're just an innocent child
You need some more time to understand

No matter how hard I try
I still feel so blue
and you're still freshly green

Maybe I just have to stop or wait
Until I find...