My Words, Your Words

I was raised with so much love
Loneliness, Pain, Parting away
You teach me all of them

In order to become stronger
You give me a pair of wings
I shout, I hurt, I struggle
Until I understand what my tears are for

I want to meet another person
Who could reflect your image
I want to be loved by that person

You taught me that accepting means love
Because you always accept me
You show me the image of the future and teach me
How to walk in that way

How could I forget that day
When I couldn't treat myself?
Only you can understand my expression
When I'm happy or When I'm sad
I can't hide it from you

Why do I forget that I was raised with so much love?
Who is the person that always accept me?
The words "Thank You" isn't enough
To express my honest gratitude
Can you show me love once again?

Sorry if I couldn't say this clearly until now
"You're the only person who can show me love"
I keep repeating that words for a long time and
I can't hold my tears anymore

Have I lost a valuable thing in my life?
I'm not pretending to be grown up
But the time is behind me, chasing me
I'm already grown up

I'm so grateful to reality
Who teach me to cry and smile
So I won't looking for an answer anymore

I don't care if somebody know me very well
Who shed tears as if I was laughing
And laugh as if I was crying
Saying goodbye to memories is just like me

Is it like this? Is it always the same?
I couldn't get used to each other
But I tried, I did my best
I'm just trying to remember

I'm so grateful to reality
Who hurt me yet teach me struggling
So I can laugh to my innocence in the past

I understand what is the meaning of your tears
So I'm singing a love song
I know I didn't lose anything yet

The happiness is gone with the wind
Yet you didn't realize that
I hope someday you will understand
How fragile is our life

Long, Long time ago
I remember someone who always taught me
A warming and soothing fairytale
I wonder where that person now?

Sometimes I want to see the future
Decorated with sprinkle stars
Yet sometimes I start to have doubt
About things I always took for granted

Where is the nostalgic color I've always want to see?
I know if I keep moving forward I will reach it someday
When I think about the future in front of me
It's shining, so far away under the sky

When the joy and the pain
Living together as one
I'll surely rise without no regrets

I will never let my dream go
Let's embrace it with hope
Because we will return to that place
Filled with tears of happiness

There's no such thing called eternity
That's why I can move on and leave the universe behind
I will surpass the limit by myself and continue to smile

The shape of the future looks so plain from a distance
Blue sky, White clouds, what a common scene in the sky
Do you think that we can go beyond those common scene?

What is the thing that I expect
When everything goes normally in every way?
I know that I have no chance
So, I'm losing your smile

The universe were so small from above
I can see the peachy colors of spring
Blossoming everywhere throughout people's heart

Things that I like and I don't like
I don't care anymore at all right now
As long as I can spread my broken wings
Within this beautiful world

Nothing can stop me with this speed
Even the flawless smiling angel in this universe
I'm going to say goodbye like a butterfly
Because I know a new day is waiting for me

Where's that heavenly place beyond the sky?
Soaring over the land where the war is never ends
Everything is increasing yet decreasing at the same time

How much memories that has lost as the time goes by?
How much anxiety that has come as the time goes by?

At that time, no one will ever see the truth
Only time will tell everything
As the universe grows old
Something unchanging will be revealed

I wonder,
Who is the person that still remember me?
Who is the person that accept my existence?
I wonder who are you..

How far they have been since they left their birthplace?
How much changed are they since they choose their own path?

At this moment, no one will realize the truth
Only time will tell everything
As the universe grows old
Something that will change continuously will be revealed

I wonder,
What is this feeling that makes me remember you?
What is this feeling that makes me want to protect you?
I wonder what is this..

When the ground shakes tremendously
Longing for the clouds in the sky
Every lost souls in this universe
Will be gone somewhere

Wanderers has losing a distance
To the path where he has to go
Another stranger suddenly appears
Carrying a decayed sword with a deep pain

The battlefield is filled with smell of the blood
If there's a dead corpse, could there be any hope?
Everything remains the same in the past

It's the world where humans live in
They defy their fate and continue living
In order to find the happiness
At the end of the world itself

Because the lost smile is in there
Because the bonds we're longing for is also there
It's where the souls will return and reunion together
The field where the roses blooming without bloodshed

Have you given up on living?
A momentary encounter
It's unexpected
...and changes everything

When you put a big smile in your face
You seem crying out loud inside
I wonder how should we call it?

Maybe it's the Truth, Happiness, or Hope
It's all yours, It's belong to you
When did people become so faithful against tomorrow?

Have you given up on believing?
For a moment I know it
It's miraculous
...and starts everything

When you say that everything is gonna be alright
You feel scared about small things inside
Don't you know that nothing is real?

It must be the Lies, Sadness, or Despair
It's all yours, It's all with you
Why did people become so fearful against tomorrow?

We always hate to lose
Being so stubborn and selfish
Is this the real me?

This trembling finger is such a restless feeling
My heart is scattered within my mind
I'm hugging my knees in the corner of this world

How many path should I choose?
I no can think of anything but you
A melody of sorrowful tune played in my heart
And break everything apart into pieces

How do I survive from this?
I can't exetend my hands to reach you
You, The illusion that dwelling inside me
Finally began to sparkling

As hard as a diamond
That's what a heart should be
If tomorrow never exist
The word 'stronger' wouldn't exist as well

When someone taught me about empty feeling
The pain goes deeper and deeper
I want to become an unwithering flower

How could I say 'Let's go'?
I only embrace this moment by myself
There is only one thing very important to me now
And you know what the answer is

How do I escape from this?
I'm going to see the lights without you
You, the image from the future inside me
Is now at my hand

As beautiful as a diamond
That's what a heart should be
If the future never exist
The word 'brighter' wouldn't exist as well

The rainbow has lose it's colors
I've come this far to find the lost light
Nothing scares me than this fear

The cold body is moving in the heat of the night
Stars are sparkling but it's hard to see the path
The rotation of this universe is always the same

Prayer of eternity in the realm of darkness
Forbidden memories in ancient times
Why we always try to defy our fate?

Please return this world to its original form
Where the kindness and unity living together
Eternal life is our wish in this wonderland

Taking the pain by the same history
Overjoyed with those excitement
Imagine ourselves in the heavenly place

Now I'm running towards the sun
Searching for a lost paradise in this universe
Why time always took everything I had?

How deep is our thoughts
When it comes to terrifying past?
You teach me something important
Through my fear, despair, and hatred

I want to talk about you a lot
Even though I don't know how
Your message is engraved within my heart
Because you taught me
How important my existence is

If this is the beginning of everything
How should I start? What should I do?
You taught me, my existence doesn't last forever
Were I able to go over the clouds peacefully?

Even if you say goodbye and suddenly disappears
You'll always be in my heart
I know I'm not alone anymore
Why I was born... How I want to live...
Thanks for your guidance within me

You always do what you set your heart on
I think it's not an easy thing to do
I want to follow you in that way

I just don't understand
What I should do when I felt so lonely
I believe I will find the answer for ourselves
Because I know I have to say goodbye someday

NOTE:

Okay, for this one it seems very different from my usual works, because for this post, I inspired by one of the famous game in PSX, which is Final Fantasy IX. If you know it, you will find a lot of of the quotes in this post. Anyway, even though this one seems different, I have to say that this is not bad, since the quotes from the games are so many. Thank You~

"Why do we fight in our lives?"
Pieces of my heart began to aches
The red curtain falls violently

I walk silently in the shadow
The shining stars is my only guide
Could I reach the destined path?

High up on the moon
The other side of myself is crying
The voices of wind are weaving

The truth will always covered with a deep mist
I'm searching for it, and lost in it, then trapped within it
Does we have any other way to choose?
I'm still living for tomorrow and reveal that kind of truth

"Why do we fight in our lives?"
Open your heart and open your eyes
As wide as the sea and the sky

The sparkling love will grow
Enlighten your mind by your side

It's been a year since I know you
You were so clumsy yet funny
I was an innocent person back then

I tried to tracing the old footprints
The path we have chosen seems different
We keep running as if never tired
I wonder why?

Now I realized that we're completely lost
We were raised with those feelings
No hope yet No despair
Clear like the boundless sky

When I'm gone somewhere
I hope you will searching for me
Even if you're lost in the eternal paradise
Where we will reunite together again

When I arrived at my home
There was a brown scarf in front of my door
Instead of you who should give that present to me

The Happy Birthday message from the scarf
Will always bring the warm feeling to me
Even if I couldn't meet you that night
I feel like you are very close to me

Since that day I have changed
Now I understand the meaning of your kindness
Every time I remember the brown scarf
My tears would dropped once again

When I'm gone somewhere
I hope you will find me
Even if you're trapped in the reality
Where our memories will live forever

The falling snow of this night is very beautiful
White colors over the orange lights under the cobalt sky
My heart is as cold as that night today
Neither hope nor despair comes to me

You said to me, "I'm proud of you"
But you never care what I feel
And you never understand what I want

Sometimes I wish upon that shooting star
I don't want tomorrow comes so early
Why the future is never listened to me,
And the past always dictating me?

I want to see the scenery of this night once again
When it comes to me, surely I will cry again
Does it okay if I keep shedding my tears like this?

I will never listen to the past anymore like the future does
Because of this present, I will keep living in a good path
When the season changes, you will find the answer
The falling petal of that season would surely greet us

I can't describe this feeling for a long time
The only thing that I would understand is
I'm sure that we're connected in different place
I secretly wish for your existence long time ago

I don't know where to find the pieces of a puzzle
We come along this journey so far
In the end, we start questioning ourselves
I don't want it to happen anymore

Do you ever realized that the world
Spinning in an interesting direction?
The proof is we could see different scenery everyday

The blue stars around the red moon tonight is beautiful
As if you could see fire and ice in the vast night sky
Don't you think that our life is as colorful as it is?
It's hard to say what I feel right now

I want to shout my feeling out loud but I can't
Did you feel the same way as I am?
We're probably connected through a secret line
Hidden deep in your mind and my heart

Don't you think that this is an interesting life?
We can move on and start over if you want
And we could see different scenery everyday

I'm willing to throw anything in my heart
To the sea where my feelings are drowned

Escaping frantically in the night
I feel the big wind towards me
Reaching the destination safely is not like me

"Why would I keep chasing on that star?"
I have nothing to say right now
What I really need is to keep this feeling
Because it will remain as my wish

I'm not going to run away forever
To the valley where my despair are lost
I won't wasting my time for anything I do

"Does it necessary to say the things I hate?"
I refrain myself for saying it again
Through the pain I used to feel
I could endure a little bit more

Now the thing that left inside me
Would change someday with a dream inside
I will embrace this moments
As long as I have the strong will
Bright and warm...

It's just a moment in the night
You won't hear any scream
It's just quiet and calm night
Even that quiet, moonlight shines brightly

And someone calls you, talk to you
And each words flowing out
And become your memories

As the time goes by
Which bring you closer to the end of days
Your heart starts to hope and make a promise
It looks like you don't know what you feel
But it is warm as if your heart wants to embrace something

Hope, what a good words
Will bring us into the dream
Even it is so far away
Even I can't see it

You were saved in this hope
But hope that is seen is not hope
Why does one still hope for what it sees?

But if we hope for what we don't see
We can eagerly wait for it