My Words, Your Words

One day i've dreaming about wonderland
I never imagine that you would be there
You look so happy without realize that i was there

I want to recall that memories
That we spent together in the past
I remember your smile are so tender and gentle

I see you walking back then
You're so happy about it but i can't reach you
I pray that someday maybe this tears will reach you

When i wake up from that nightmare
I burst into tears again
I don't understand why that is really hurt

I'm searching for your picture in my room
Wish that this tears wouldn't be meaningless
I hate this embrassing pain so much

I remember your profile once again
I don't know since when i hate you this much
But deep in my hearts you still have a place

Being selfish and crybaby doesn't break this chains
I'm tired of this moments already
I want to go through this sleepless nights

However how many times i crying before
You will never come back again at once
There's a wish that cannot be granted
The time won't go back although we have pray for a years

I'm here, You're here
That's all, That's everything

*Note: Credits to Hamasaki Ayumi and the song "flower garden" for the last part >,<

If only the day when i should leave this place
Come so early and so suddenly
There will be a moment encounter
Feeling so depressed with full of regrets

The cloudy sky today has giving a sign
Decisions made because of the pressure of these feelings
No more words flows out from the living beings
As if the world begins to silence

What is the answer behind this truth?
Should people answer it with another tears?
Even if the wound in this heart has began to ache once again
I dare to say that i'm okay

What is the reason for telling lies?
Even so, that's not the worst thing to remember
Because if we tell too much, the words flows too much
The truth will become blurred

Please, make an excuse for the sake of yourself
Everyone will go to the same place
But not in the same way as they think
That's why, we will surely together someday

Let's make an appropriate life
In exchange of sacrificing something
When the day where hesitation and despair meets
Surely, i will fight against it

With all my strength left inside me
I will turn the sky become blue
If only you understand...

Being able to smile for each situation is good
But, it's really tiring if it's fake or doesn't go in that way

Today, in your mind, i can't see a war between hope and disappointment
But your face shows it all and anyone would think the same.

Don't blame on anyone else unless you can proof it all.
At least, you aren't looking so confuse to keep the atmosphere calm

However your heart are foggy, don't close your eyes,
It'll make you get out from the line and losing your self-control

You can't express it with your half-hearted attitude, in the end,
You will fall in regret, and protect yourself from despair

Isn't it useless to bringing so many words to the public place?
Isn't it shameful for you to acts without thinking?

When people around you doesn't match your standards,
You don't have any reason to act freely with your own emotion

Does it hurts you very much until you realize where are you right now?
As long as you know what you do, the present will able to understand you very well

What do you want to find in the end of your journey?
What is the thing that you want to keep safely?
When you want to find the answer, listen to the voice of your heart and go along with the beat

In this short stories of life,
How many questions appears at the same time when you have to choose something important for your life?

It could be boring if you just live for yourself, but it wasn't an easy thing to realize it
It might be fun if you always together with your ordinary friends,
But it might be meaningless fun if you just fulfill it for yourself.

It was the reality, wandering around us searching for the truth
Don't you have a definite answer?

Should we measure that distance?
What does it takes to the next moment?

When people keep the pride inside of them,
The more they try to be defensive against usual things

Let's shorten the distance then, with sacrifice
Let's unite together, so that the victory is ours

Hey there lovers,
Hiding your identity just for yourself
Acts like a child or sometimes comical
What does it takes to love someone?

Don't being too nervous
As if it wasn't yourself as well

However far you will be separated
As long you believe and remember
It's really near

You even try to sacrificing yourself up
In order to protect something precious right now
What you need is just confidence

Hey there lovers,
Stupid things are become sweet things
Light wounds are become deep pain
What does it takes to keep up your love?

Moving around so arrogant with pride
As if you are the ruler of the world

Although you have bring your time so steadly
It seems that not enough to satisfy
It's really extravagant

Didn't notice for anything that close to you
Is become your nature right now
What you need is just attention

Hey there lovers,
Joke are not casually happened
But it's necessarily happened
Quarreling will build you up
And forgiveness will protect you up

Every small rotation of this world
Will deliver us to the ends of anything
Slowly, we are facing the eternity
In this flowing of time
That was the reality

When things are begin so fast, the ending will arrives quickly
No one could deny that, even me
It's not possible to make any rules at time like this

We are just a small creatures, that living in the same way
Our existence is like the dots, in the whole time
But the dots will become a big shape, if a lines connected each other

Everything that happens in this world are necessary
It's inevitable and so important
Nothing is useless
That was the true form of this universe

We continue to walk on this path, to the end of the world, leaving so many things behind every small rotation of this world

Forever, to the ends of the world, let's start to make a grateful journey
You and I, let's make another history
Until the day when this universe stops spinning..

Here, in my room
I've been showing so many feelings
That no one else would know
Which direction i'll go afterwards

So many things that i want to give to everyone
This feeling, This pain, This moments, please accept it all as a good memories

At this kind of moment, the words that running around in my mind is only "Thank You"
Even i can't say it out loud, i think anyone could understand the shape of my face

Here, in my room
I've been flooding this place with overflowing tears
I'm not sad or anything but this is the result of each memories

I've been searching the perfect words to express this feeling
But, it's not like me who always telling something with uncertain thoughts

At this kind of moment, the only thing that i could do is just humming the messages
Even i can't do it properly but at least i didn't hurt anyone else

I want to protect that time, so no one can interrupt the story
I want to protect that experience, so you can embrace that moment

If everyone could understand what does it means to take the pain,
They will welcome the pain peacefully, not forcefully

Here, in my room
I understand it all..

Again, we come into a day
When words are something that we can rely of
These are the evidence to seek the truth
That already lost in labyrinth of despair

Is it like this?
Is it always the same?
Why do people have words?
Why can't people live as one?

Sometimes, i don't have any courage
Even to trust on anyone else
But i know i was wrong
Because, I've lost my confidence since that day

Do you notice that?
Do you try pretending to be ok all the time?
Who will stand and protect you at a time like that?
When you will feel free?

There will be a day
When you feel that you have lost all your strength
But, even it is going to happen
The Sun still rise and The world keep spinning

No matter how you try to express your hopeless expressions
No one will left you alone in the corner of this world
I'm feeling so...